Life: A Beautiful Disaster (A O2L, Magcon fanfic)

The Breakdown

'Dont cry, do not- cry.' I told myself over and over. 'It's not the end of life, just lacrosse. Ugh! Who am I kidding? Lacrosse is my life!'

"I'm so sorry! It's my fault." Conners sweet voice interrupted my thoughts. I glanced up going to reply, let him know it wasn't, but instead I dropped my head back down again and I lost it. I am now sitting on a doctors table bawling my eyes out, waiting to be casted, with a guy I've only known for a few hours. At a loss for words I looked up and stared at Conner for a few minutes. My mind was racing, but my mouth wouldn't form what I wanted to say, only what I needed too.

"Conner, don't beat yourself up, not over me. It wasn't your fault. I wish I could ask you to stay, I wish I could get to know you better, I need someone to help me get through this whole, no more lacrosse thing. I mean ally's great but I wish it could be you, but in honesty, you deserve someone so much better than me." I cried. 'What the heck did I just do?!' I don't share my feelings, I especially don't let a guy know I like them!

"You can, I will stay. I know we haven't known each other long but I feel like I've known you my whole life. I will always be here for you. And if I ever hear you say I deserve someone better, ever again, there will be problems. There is no one better than you Roselynn Archer." He replied firmly while embracing me in a hug. I buried my head in his chest accepting his care.

"Yes there is, there are tons better than me! You don't know my past, you don't know the mistakes I've made!" I responded at almost a yell.

"Your past doesn't matter anymore."

"It would if you knew! If you knew you'd walk out in an instant!"

"Try me. I'm here to stay. You can't get rid of me." He smirked. How cute, he thinks I'm kidding. (Note the sarcasm)

"I had a kid! At 14 I had a kid with a stranger! I tracked him down when I found out and he wanted nothing to do with her. My parents kicked me out, my brother refuses to talk to me and my sister died when I was 8! The only person I have left is Ally. I had to give the baby up because I knew I couldn't do it alone and I couldn't make Ally give up her life for MY kid! I have been in a foster homes since my pregnancy, I got out as soon as I turned 18, but I live off money from the state because I can't keep a job and even with a job I can't afford anything in this friggin town!!!! Do you still think I deserve someone as great as you?!"

"Roselynn, I'm here to cast your arm. Do you want a specific color?" Nurse Jenn asked as she walked into the room. Jenn has been my nurse since I was little.

"We will talk later." Conner mouthed.

"Lime green!" I shouted while I fake a smile and attempted to dry my eyes with my fingers. Nurse Jenn laughed. I nodded an ok back to Conner although I really don't feel like talking about what just happened.

Nurse Jenn finished casting me and gave me the run down and told me to come back in three months for X-rays to make sure my arm is healing correctly. I told Nurse Jenn thanks and said bye. I hoped off the table and we we are outta here. Thank God!