Broken

Pair of Wholeness

I walked into the guest room switching on the bulb and, sitting on the bed was John. His presence startled me a little.
"You know you shouldn't be sitting here all alone in the dark" I said placing my bag on the bed
"You know you shouldn't leave me in the dark all the time" He said
"Here we go again" I said almost inaudibly
"Liz, you know that's not fair" I could see anger radiating in his eyes
"I went to my mum's grave can't I even visit her again"
"You and I know this is not what all these is about, you are just trying to make me look bad now"
"That's far from the point John" I snapped at him.
"Tell me what is close to the point then" He spoke angrily
"You leave the house for days without sending me a mail nor a normal text Elizabeth and you kept declining my calls, what's all the drama for? I thought we'd passed this stage. I had to get worried normally, I am human."
"I don't want this anymore John" my eyes watered as I spoke and he stood up
"This? this you say, damn! what did I do this time?" standing on one spot he looked at me while talking
"John I am tired of everything. You can stop pitying me already"
"You overheard my conversation with Kimberly didn't you?" he said moving closer
"Good you figured it out." I snapped
"Liz you got it all mixed up trust me" he defended himself
"Oh! tell me more" Provocation could be heard from my tone
"I need to buy more time. I can't loose Sky and I can't loose you either. Try to understand me at least. I said what I said to buy more time"
"Then your time exchange rate is really expensive John. I know the love you have for Sky is different from what we share but trying to fix things with Kimberly to steal time is something I don't get. So where do I stand right now? again I lost more than I won. I thought together we could work something not this John"
"I was so scared I might loose one of you"
"Sky you mean" I said
"Liz I don't get you this time. I don't! How else am I to show you how much you mean to me? because I don't get. I have tried my best to make you feel I care about you, how else am I to show you this heart beats for you? I keep telling you I love you every single day even if you never reply. How else should I show you you mean the world to me? how am I to make you believe I want nothing but to heal these wounds you keep putting salt to all the time. You always find reasons to leave and am just human you will always find a reason because I can't do everything right. Why not try to find reasons to stay this time?"
"Somehow you helped me escape from this pain and I feel safe whenever I am by you. I am scared of letting my guard down maybe because I feel I might never be good enough or maybe because Kimberly is still in the picture and the thought of her scares me"
"Why does it? why does it scare you?"
"Because I'm attached to those eyes and the owner of the eyes" I could feel my tears on my lips by now
"I love you Liz believe me and I can't let you go" his hands found mine as he spoke
"I love you too and I am sorry for making you get worried"
"It's okay. I knew where you were at"
"Dammmmnnn Amelia" I said laughing
"She saved me from getting crazy" He said smiling
"Come here" He pulled me close and held me tight
"Somehow I'm happy you got divorced" I said without thinking
"Why?" he sounded puzzled
"Because I found you"
"Selfish bitch" he joked
"I don't Care" I screamed
"I didn't see that coming. I got something for you." He said and I escaped from his embrace
"Funny how you behave like Sky when it comes to gifts" he teased
"Guilty as charged" I said
"Hope you like it" he said as he moved towards the cupboard
"Sure I will, should I close my eyes?"
"Hahaha these films are getting the best of you" he teased
"Joy killer" I said while laughing
"Yeah yeah. Here we go" He held a big gift box tied with ribbons at the top and for some reasons my heart beat raced. I could feel my blood drain.
"Damn! calm down. Who proposes in this manner these days." he said lightening my mood
I ripped the box open, and found a bar of chocolate tied at the top of the second box inside. I pulled out the chocolate and opened the second box and found another box inside. I looked at him as anxiety had to best of me
"Johnnnn" I screamed as I moved the boxes to the bed. Each box led me to another box which had my favorite chocolate flavor and finally the last box. It was the smallest of all the boxes. I opened it and it was empty. I looked at John a little disappointed. It was then he sent his hands in his pocket and brought out a smaller box
"I think these movies have got the best of you" I said as I took the box smiling.
"Wooooow" I held the chain and my eyes watered
"You cry at every point of your life damn" he said laughing
"You are so insensitive" I snapped
"It has mom's picture. How did they.. Wow it is lovely" Tears rolled down my cheeks
"For a moment I thought you would think it was a scapula" he teased
"hahahaha"
"Let me help you put it on" he said and I lifted up my hair
"There you go"
"Thank you" I smiled
"Mention mention but, don't I deserve a kiss?"
"you are so cheap" I said scattering his hair
"Sounds nice from somebody who hugs me twenty four seven" he said and I hugged him again
"Marry me Liz" he whispered as I rested in his arms
"I thought you had to take me to Dubai for the proposal huuuuh" I joked around with him
"Yeah. okay for now promise you won't leave" he went on
"I can't leave even if I wanted to"
"You don't have a choice, do you? Who else can give you 12 kids with beautiful blue eyes?" he asked smiling
"Just you" I said staring at the pair of blue eyes I had found peace in. My pair of wholeness. This was happiness for me, this was my Epoxy.

The End