Broken

Weakest Point

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"Lisa, i thought you left already" Doc John said looking a little surprised
" I...I... I decided to check on something first" I said half stammering
I expected him to be cold or, act a little angry but here he was looking okay and fine
he was just a different type altogether
"Okay so, are you done?" he asked staring at me
"Done?" I asked
"Yeah done with what you had to check out" he explained
" Yeah Sure i am"
"Okay i'm done for the day too, we could move out together"
"Sure" I answered calmly

As i reached the hostel, the familiar smell hit me, 'no place better than home' i screamed as i bounced on my bed. The worryingly thin mattress reminded me this was home
As i sat waiting for my phone to charge, I flushed all the sedatives i had.. 'that's the first step girl'...I told myself
I laid on the bed with pillows propped behind my head, trying to make up a good lie to tell my mum. She must be really worried by now, I looked at my phone but it wasn't up to 15% charged
During moments like this I always wished I never got cheap chargers

"Mum" I said calmly
"Oh goodness Lisa, hope you enjoyed your trip"
"Trip" I didn't get it
"Yes Trip, Jack told me about it" she said

For once Jack did something right

"Oh the Trip"
"luckily he called i was so worried, i thought you..." she paused
She didn't have to say it i understood completely, but Suicide wasn't an option. I wouldn't kill myself though i thought of that before but not anymore
"Mum" i called out
"Baby" I knew she was fighting back tears because her voice was now shaky
"I just want to thank you for being the reason why I look forward to the next day,Words alone can't explain how much you mean to me, I promise to make the rest of my life the best of it, I promise to fight the demons of my past so, you could stop worrying about me all the time" I could hear light sobs now
"You know I just want you to be happy, want you to sleep at night, Love somebody, Just anything which will bring you incessant joy" she said while sobbing
After about 5minutes of chatting she hung up
That was a whole lot of emotions
A wave of pain hit me as i heard her go deep, I knew all this already but, I didn't know how to fight it. Slowly, I felt myself getting worse every single day, I felt Like I was in a drained ocean but still I was there trying to swim
I wanted to refresh my memory, I didn't want a perfect life  just a happy one... but, the big problem was, how could I be happy after everything
"Psychotherapy" the thought popped again
I was at my weakest point right now but I was ready to fight for strength

As I sat still in my favorite position, pillows propped at the back of my head, my knees were bent, my favorite novel laid on my laps. As i started reading the novel for the 5th time, the door swung open; soundless and with ease. Immediately, a draft of fresh air hit my face and a familiar fragrance
Jack
"I won't mind giving you classes on knocking" I said as he walked in
"I will mind attending" he said
"The least you could do is knock before entering MY room" I said stressing on the *My
"Really" he said and I knew he would barge in over an over again
"Yes Really" I said sternly
"I didn't come here to fight" he said sternly too
"whatever" I responded rudely
"Damnnn good girl gone bad" he said provocatively
"what's that suppose to mean" I wasn't giving up easily
"What you understood" he said sharply as he rasped his fingers in his hair

Something told me to hit his head with the wooden flower jar by my bedside but he wasn't worth it, the jar was too expensive

"You could at least tell me thank you for saving your life"

I knew I wouldn't hear the end of this

'that's just the beginning girl' my head said

"Thank you for saving my life" I said pleasing him

How on earth did i end-up loving this boy, where was my common sense? I stood there wondering as he sat on my bed