The Girl In The Red Raincoat (Pennywise x Reader)

Chapter 17: 24 Years Later

*This chapter deals with depression so that's a  Trigger Warning for anybody*

I finished putting the last of the glasses away and folded the empty box as I went to sit on the couch. I sighed as I sat down, looking around my new apartment and to the last few boxes sitting in the dining room. This place was small, but it was just big enough for me. Suddenly, I heard the telephone, making me sigh once again at the thought of getting up. 

"Hello?" I ask, finally answering.

"Hey" Maggie's voice came through the other end. "How are you?" 

"Oh good, just finishing up unpacking. How are you?" I ask, wiping my forehead. 

"Yeah? That's good, you know we could have helped you..." she said back sympathetically. 

"No worries, I have it all under control." I said, walking over the window, looking down at the street below. 

"Esther told me about their big plans..." Maggie said. 

"Oh she did?" I asked, playing with the phone chord. 

"You know me, I wasn't too thrilled with the idea at first but she assured me they'd be fine." she said, letting out a big sigh. 

"I'm sure they will be..." I said, sighing too. 

Maggie's daughter, Esther and Robbie started dating two years ago and they've been inseparable ever since. They moved in together a few months ago and have been planning on a month long trip to Europe for ages. Neither Maggie or I were too thrilled with the idea of our little ones going off somewhere so far away without us, but they were adults now. 

"How are you doing, really?" she asked, her voice getting lower. 

"I've been okay. Just taking it day by day." I said back, reassuringly. 

"Well if you ever need anything, and I mean anything, just call." she said and I could the smile in her voice. "I've gotta go now, but i'll talk to you soon."

"Bye M" I said back then hung up. 

I walked into my bathroom, opening the medicine cabinet, grabbing my pills. I took them, washing it down with some water. I put the pills back in the cupboard and closed it, looking at myself in the mirror. My eyes were tired and my once glowing skin now looked dull. It all started about a year ago. I couldn't sleep, couldn't eat, couldn't get out bed. It got to the point where I was missing multiple days of work and everyone around me started to notice how much i'd changed. I started seeing a therapist and she's been helpful but, frankly, not being able to talk about what's really bothering me has taken quite the toll. Cassidy, my therapist, knows i've been a single mom since I was 21, she knows i've never been with anybody since then and she knows I lost someone close to me. What she doesn't know is that someone is Penny. Pennywise the Dancing Clown. Today is approximately 2 years, 200 days until the 27th anniversary of the day Penny left. The day i've been waiting for, the day i've been agonizing over. I've never been completely whole since he left, and now that i'm living on my own again, I can really feel that loss.    

I was taken away from my thoughts as I heard my stomach rumble. I hadn't eaten since this morning but I didn't have much food in the house. I picked up my bag and locked up the door. The cool air hit me as I made my way to the sandwich shop down the street. I was in my own world, thinking about nothing in particular when I heard something. I looked up from my feet to see what it was but I couldn't find the source. I continued walking but the sound became louder, making me stop in my tracks. I still couldn't make out what the sound was so I decided to continue. As I walked further and further up the street the sound got louder and louder. Pretty soon I was able to make out the sound of little voices, causing me to quicken my pace. As I made my way past an alleyway I heard distinctive voice call out my name. I stopped and looked into the dark alley, trying to see what was there in the darkness. I heard a voice once again call my name and felt a force pull me forward. My feet began to move me deeper into the alley and before I knew what I was doing I was stopped in front of a large white door. I looked at the door, reading the sign on the front. 'Quality Meats' it read in large letters. I looked around, the sounds and voices now gone. I could see my breath in the air as I took a few deep breathes. Suddenly, I heard a bang come from inside the door, causing me to jump. The rim of the doorway lit up with bright orange and yellow and the sound of screams filled my ears. I covered my ears and tears came as my eyes as the door opened ever so slightly. The screams continued as hands emerged from behind the door, clawing and grabbing at the edge. Tears began to roll down my eyes and as much as I wanted to run, I couldn't. The door then burst open, causing me to fall back onto the pavement. I looked back up into the doorway and all I could see was darkness, the hands and glow no longer being there. I blinked a few times, tears running down my cheeks and I quickly wiped them away. Then, I heard another sound, a clanging, metal type of sound. I slowly got up onto my feet, not taking my eyes away from the door. I squinted and suddenly chains came into view and they were all swinging wildly. More tears rolled down my cheeks as I tried to make sense of what was happening but before I could even think, I saw glowing yellow eyes piercing out from between the chains. A deafening laugh filled the space between us and a low light flickered on. My eyes widened as I saw... Penny. He was swinging wildly from a chain that was wrapped around his neck. 

"Penny!" I yelled out, running towards him.

I was almost at the door when it suddenly slammed shut in front of me. 

"No! No!" I yelled out, yanking on the door handle which was now locked. 

*took some inspo from the first IT film with this scene!*