The Girl In The Red Raincoat (Pennywise x Reader)

Chapter 31: Trying

   I slowly opened my eyes, my body was moving slightly and I couldn't focus on anything.  I felt friction under my coat as my body gently swayed. My head was position up against his body, I could feel the silk on my cheek. He was carrying me. I started to shake, feeling my cold, damp hair on the back of my neck and my pants were now soaked. I shivered and he pulled me closer.
"We are almost there" he whispered.
I didn't ask questions, just held onto him tightly and tried to warm up.
We arrived back at Neibolt Street, Penny kicked open the door and took us upstairs. He sat me down gently on my feet, I wobbled a little but was able to regain my balance. I looked over to the mattress which now had a brown blanket on it.
"Where did that come from?" I turned to him.
"I didn't want you to be cold when you came here." Was all he said.
I smiled at him turning back around and sitting on the blanket. It doesn't smell like anything, so that's a good sign.
I sat in silence, playing with my thumbs and looking anywhere I could beside into Penny's eyes. Finally I looked up at him, he still had Matt's blood all over his face. I winced but grabbed my backpack off the floor which Penny had also carried here. It was soaked and muddy but I grabbed the packet of wipes out of the pocket again and took one out. I walked over to Penny and began wiping his face off. I started to cry and Penny took my hand, moving it away.
I turned away from Penny, I didn't want him to see me cry. I screamed, trying to release all the pent up emotion I had. Anger, fear, sadness, empathy and even, love. Penny came up behind me, grabbing my waist and putting his arms around me. Feeling him this close to me, trying to comfort me just made me cry harder. This wasn't natural for him, he didn't understand my emotions, but he was trying.
I stopped crying and just stood there, breathing out of mouth as my nose was now clogged. The last few tears fell off my cheeks and all was silent again. I didn't know what to do, what to say. He killed someone, he ate someone and I saw it. Someone I knew. Even though Matt was a horrible person, I still fell a slight sadness in my heart that that happened to him. That's not a good way to go out.
I sighed, leaning back into Penny and grabbing his arms. I kissed his cheek, something I'd never done before and then walked away.
"I'm sorry you had to see that" he finally spoke up.
"He did to himself." I replied. It's true, he did.
"But you shouldn't have to see that."
"It's part of you, it's what you do. I will never understand it, just like you don't understand me." I said, now turned to face him. I was trying to be strong for him.
"I think I should go home, need to change." I looked up at him.
He just shook his head so i walked over, grabbed my stuff and left.

*I know I'm writing Pennywise A LOT different than in the book or movie... but again this is just my interpretation. My version of Penny for the story*