Let Me In (book 2 - follow on from Abandoned)

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Maura's PoV

"Where did she go Lee?" I plead with him to tell me as I stand in the small office with him

"Home Maura, look she asked to leave so I let her, just give her time M, I shouldn't be telling you this but she did tell me that you stole her heart and you still have it. She misses you Maura and she still loves you, but she got hurt, so she left, she's still really hurting Maura. I don't know what happened when she was at Juilliard before you ask, but what ever that was, I think that screwed her up a lot more than she's letting on. All she said about it was her past caught up with her." Lee explains to me as he wraps his arm around me trying to comfort me as once again I'm not being able to control my emotions as the pain in my heart rips through me yet again.

"I guess I'll just have to give her time and pray that one day she will talk to me." I whisper pulling away from Lee "at least I know where she is and I can see her at work in the week" I sigh

"Yeah and I'll let you know if I can get her to take a regular set here.. now Maura you need to go home try and relax and get some rest, stop beating yourself up you know where she is now that's got to be some form of relief" Lee warmly says I nod and bid him a good night and leave not speaking to Sam or Frost on the way out. Getting in my car I drive home.

Letting the emptiness of the house consume me again, only tonight with a small amount of hope that maybe one day Jane will come home, back to me.

Exhaustion taking over me i drag myself up to my room stripping off and pulling on some shorts and one of Jane's hoodies that she didn't take I curl up in bed and close my eyes like most times I sleep with only her on my mind.

Jane's PoV

Weeks roll into each other it's the start of another week at work, it's been three months since I started, the kids seem to be excited that I'm going to be looking at setting a school band up if any of them are any good and are all eager for try outs. Yet deep down I'm not holding my breath the music department was never a strong area of Boston High, but hopefully I can change that.

259am and boom another fucking nightmare wakes me sighing I roll over onto my back rubbing my left palm my mind wanders to Maura, I can't stop myself from wondering how she's sleeping. If she's still at the same house, how she actually was after I left.

Slowly torturing myself knowing that if I had been stronger and not left and didn't take what she said to heart then I would still have her in my life. Yet after everything she knew, she became cold because she was hurting and took it out on me, and like a kid I left.

"Urgh" Groaning to myself getting up to workout trying to shake her from my thoughts only I can't shake her its getting harder to shake her from them. Giving up working out when I feel the tears threaten my eyes, which I don't allow to fall anymore each time it's harder to control it, it's harder to drown the noise out. Taking myself to the shower letting the water hit the back of my neck until I need music to help fill the void.

Getting ready for the day I lock up and ride to work in the soft rain, and darkness of the night. Luckily for me the schools always empty and I have keys thanks to Mark to be able to get in when I need to. Setting my room up for first period I realise I have just over two hours to myself until the school is full and the day will begin.

Flicking the lights on in my music room pushing the door so it's more than half open. I scan the instruments and settle on a cello.

Allowing myself to let go as the bow caresses the strings. Transporting myself out of the room trying to find somewhere relatively calming in my head. That always seems to be of happier times with Maura.