Let Me In (book 2 - follow on from Abandoned)

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Jane's PoV

"Jane honey it's only me let me go" Maura's soft voice hits my ears as I come around more and I'm mortified to find I'm pinning her to the bed.

Scrambling backwards away from her panic hits me knowing I've probably hurt her once again I fall off the bed backwards with a loud thud.

"Jane you ok?" Ste's voice rings through the room with panic in his voice as he steps towards me, my eyes going wide as I'm being pulled straight back into that basement

"Steven, it's ok, go back to bed, try to get some more sleep" I just about hear Maura say as she gets out of the bed approaching me, hearing the door close I know that there's only Maura and myself in the room. I know I'm safe. Yet I'm not even safe from myself.

"Jane, can you get up sweetie?" She patiently asks watching me as my body starts to shake I peel myself up off the floor and start to pace.

"I... you... no... can't.." I start to stammer as I struggle to catch my breath intentionally I begin to rub my scars as hard as I can to keep me in the present.

"You need to slow your breathing Jane, stop rubbing them so hard you're causing yourself pain" Maura calmly says reaching out she takes my hand in hers making me flinch but she doesn't let go, she just starts to run her thumb over my knuckles, increasing the pressure each time.

When I've calmed down Maura leads me back to the bed making me get back in she lays down lifting her arm for me to be close to her again. As the lump in my throat gets harder to swallow the tears burning at my eyes.

"Did I hurt you?" I manage to get out without my voice breaking

"No sweetie, but I had to touch you Jane, you.. you were having a very bad nightmare.. you don't even need to tell me what was happening, I know." Maura replied gently massaging my scalp

"Hhhow?" I choke

"The way you were lay" is all she answers me with as my body starts to tremble once again as I battle to keep everything in

"I'm so sorry.....Time is it?" I manage to get out scrunching my eyes closed trying to force the tears to stay in

"It's just turned one honey... let it out Jane I know your holding it in right now, I'm right here with you, I'm not going anywhere... I love you Jane" Maura says as I finally allow myself to break and the tears start to flow not being able to control them Maura holds me tighter against her as I sob uncontrollably.

Maura's PoV

Holding Jane tighter against me as she uncontrollably sobs letting it all out her body shakes against me, she's held this in for far too long, I don't say anything I just let her get it out, there's no words of comfort that I can find to even offer her. She just needs to let it all out. After an hour and a half she starts to get heavier on me I can still feel the tears soaking into my top but her body has stopped shaking and she's silent as she cry's herself to sleep.

Jane's PoV

Waking up still wrapped in Maura's arms was not what I was expecting. My whole body aches. Feeling ashamed of myself for letting it out and crying myself to sleep I feel absolutely drained. I sigh internally scolding myself for allowing it out. Allowing myself to be weak. Feeling Maur stir beneath me and stretch a little.

"Hi" i shakily whisper

"Morning Janie, how are you feeling?" Maura asks

"Drained.. like nothing before... Maura?"

"Mmm" she hums running her hand through my hair

"I'm sorry"

"Sweetie you don't need to be sorry, you didn't hurt me, you let it out last night and managed to sleep in the end. You will get there Jane slowly you will." She explains as there's a knock on the door