Let Me In (book 2 - follow on from Abandoned)

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Jane's PoV

Sighing to myself as I take yet another beer from the fridge, I have no idea what to do. This whole situation is so fucked up. I could see the pain that Maura was in today and all I wanted to do was take her in my arms, but I can't, I can't allow myself to get hurt again, and I can't hurt her. I never once stopped loving her, and that right now that's the problem.

Mark's words ring through my mind that true love will always find away. Maybe I just have to give it time but keep myself at a distance from them all. There's one person that I wish I could speak to, I know he would be here in a heart beat but I shut him out when he didn't do anything wrong.

Finishing my second beer I head to my room, pulling on some black skinnies a sheer top over my bra pulling on my boots I grab my wallet, keys, phone and jacket and walk out to find Lee's bar Tigers, which I find is actually only two blocks down from me.

"Well fuck me where the hell have you been hiding!?!" Lee greats me as I lean against his bar

"Nice place you got Lee"

"Ohhh no Riz I need to know.." he pushes

"Bottle of whiskey then I'll talk.." I tell him he raises his eyebrows setting the bottle and a glass down in front of me "how much do you know?"

"Err well after that night, I know things weren't great with you and M, all we found out from Sam was that you left, no idea why, have you seen them?" Lee asks

"I saw them both today. I left Lee because of shit she said, she was hurting I know that, but some of the things she said cut too deep so I did as she asked and I left." I shrug downing the whiskey pouring another glass out

"Jay you didn't just leave you vanished dude where the hell have you been?"

"Juilliard" I look up at him seeing his eyes go wide

"Damn girl always knew you were talented enough! They looked for you Jane, I know she never stopped.. how are they?" Lee calls over the music

"Clearly didn't look hard enough. They were shocked to find me being the new head of the music department. This is the most freely I've spoken Lee, since I left... I'm a very cut off person to what I used to be, so I would appreciate it if you don't talk to them about what we speak about." I explain

"Shit!! Head of the department at what twenty?! Fuck why am I even serving you?!? How do you feel about coming back and seeing them!? How's Sam?" He frowns reaching for the bottle

"Because I look older that's why you'll serve me.. don't you dare take that away. So why did you ask how he is surely you have been seeing him? As for seeing them well, Sam I dunno, but Maura. Shit I would be a lier if I said I didn't miss her, she's always on my mind Lee. I never once stopped loving her, she stole my heart and she still has it, but I don't know if she even feels the same, then there's all the shit we would have to deal with and I'm just not ready to go there." I sigh

"Jay, believe me she loves you. She's never been the same since you left, she comes here often just to listen to the music, said it makes her feel closer to you, give it a little time to adjust to being back, take things at your speed maybe one day you'll be able to sort it out, you don't have to rush it kid. As for Sam not long after you left he quit the band. Non of us have seen him around much, he occasionally comes in for a drink sometimes with M but more often than not he's not around if he comes in it's normally a Monday night so don't be shocked if they turn up." He explains

"Oh.. so look you still holding open mic nights?" I find myself asking changing the subject

"It's an open stage policy now unless there's someone booked for the stage, why you wanna play?" Lee grins at me