Midnight thoughts

25-Selfish

I always thought that I was selfish. I never cared about anyone. I never asked about anyone's well being. Relatives would go to the hospital and get back and I wouldn't care. My parents would be sick and I wouldn't ask about it. My father would travel and I would barely talk to him if my mother wouldn't hand me the phone herself. Both my grandfathers died and I didn't feel a thing. I just stood there, mimicking others cause I didn't know how to react or what to do. My friends would tell me their problems and it wouldn't feel to me like a big deal, I would just shrug it off, and get back to talking about my own problems. Isn't that being selfish?

Well, it sure is for me.

But recently, I discovered that I was not as selfish as I thought. I discovered that I could be selfless. I could be so selfless that I could put my wants and needs and my personal opinion aside, just of the sake of someone. I could be selfless and talk my self out of being subjective while still listening and putting my objective opinion into the matter. Who knew I could do that? Who knows I could put myself aside just for the sake of someone, just to make someone feel better, just to help them with their problem without having my point of view interfering? Who knew I could do that? or maybe I'm still the same... Maybe I did what I did just for that someone. Maybe it's because that someone is the reason why I'm changing every day. Maybe it's that special someone who made me reach that level of selflessness?

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