What do I have anything else to lose? I lost my life, everything, my group of friends, my support, my happiness.
What if I could voice my opinion? What else could happen?
I mean is it too hard to say what I want? I don't want to fake happiness! I don't want to be stuck in your fake happy life. I can't be fake. I lost all my years trying to be fake but for what? I developed a personality, I'm definitely not losing it for the sake of being fake again.
Do you want your la la land? Well, you got it, but on my terms. I get to live my life the way I want it with whom I want. You don't get a say in it, directly or indirectly. It's my life and I will be the only one ruling it. I choose who to hang out whether you like it or not. You will get your fake conversations back and your fake trust if that's what you want. You will get your fake daughter. But as soon as I'm out those doors I get to be what I want. My happiness matter to me at least if it doesn't matter to you. I will show you the fake happiness you want but just know I will never be happy in here. I got no one to trust or to rely on in here, and I will never have it, so stop convincing me otherwise.
Blood means nothing sometimes, and I'm not going along for the sake of it. I lost myself already for you and I'm not doing it again.
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Midnight thoughts
PoesíaThe title says it all. What anyone would think of, late at night, gathered in here. Because why not. (I promise you the chapters get better as you go, I'm continuously writing more and more chapters and I'll be more than glad to see if any of you ca...
