For once I'm gonna talk directly, and you just have to listen.
You told me you're not gonna interfere in my life and that you're not gonna choose my friends for me. You told me that I'm free to do whatever I want within limits like not staying out late and no more sleepovers.
But when I tell you I'm going out, you blame me for being wrong?
You still want me to live my life according to your rules. You still want to choose who I hang out with. You still want to forbid me to see my friends.
Well let me tell you something. You know nothing about me. You know nothing about my social life. You know nothing about my past friendships.
Do you know how many friends I had? Do you know why some friendships didn't work out? Do you know who stood by me all these times? Do you know who accepted me for just being me?
You know nothing about me.
Do you know how many guys I've dated? How many guys I went out with? Do you know if I even had a guy in my life? Do you know that I had many opportunities of meeting a guy and dating him because of your sacred rules?
Do you know that they all judged me as a mommy's girl or daddy's girl just because I have to obey you and follow your request. I mean they are right. Who would want to date such a girl or even just befriend her?!
And if you consider knowing everything just because I told you some stories, well let me correct you on this. Because I didn't even told you 10% of my social life, and you will still remain knowing nothing. Not that I'm hiding something. But I deserve some privacy in a household that doesn't even know what privacy means.
You don't even know that with all that I've been through, the people who are still in my life are the one's who always rushed to defend me in my back, and the ones who always helped me through rough times, the one's that never bullied me like other's did. Do you even know that sometimes I was bullied?
You know nothing. Nothing at all. And with that you don't have any right to tell me how to live my life. And even if I told you, you won't understand it from my perspective. Because you don't know me.
I will choose who to hang out with and I will choose who to be friend with. Even if you don't like it. Or even if you forbid me to do it.
You had your chance to live your life. Now let me live mine in peace.
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Midnight thoughts
PoetryThe title says it all. What anyone would think of, late at night, gathered in here. Because why not. (I promise you the chapters get better as you go, I'm continuously writing more and more chapters and I'll be more than glad to see if any of you ca...
