They say school friendships never lasts. But here we are, ten years later, when both of us parted different ways for a different college. Going strong... yes, definetely, but I think not. Why you ask? Because I don't deserve a friend like you. Or better... You don't deserve to have someone like me with you. You would be better off without me. You deserve someone better than me, someone who would actually listen to you carefully, give you all their attention. This is what hurts me the most. That you could be better off without me, without my non-endless ranting and pouting, my boring love stories, and pathetic love life, my non-stop talking and babbling.
I'm sure you'll be better off without me.
I shoud have paid more attention when you were talking to me, gave you more advice like a real friend would do, listen to you carefully when you tried talking to me about your problems. I know I don't deserve you. You are an amazing person. I know sometimes or most of the times I annoyed you a lot, but you were the only person I could confide to, who would understand me. But I never succeeded reciprocating this.
You tell me you are proud of our friendship, I think I'm glad to have you as a friend but you would be better of without me. I think that I am not worthy of you. You deserve better. I am sorry about all the things I did, and sorry for the things I didn't do. I am proud of our frienship, about all the years we got through, but I still think you deserve someone better. I hope this doesn't shock you a lot. I hope you know how hard it is for me to get all that out. I hope you know how much I love you. I hope you know I'm in awe of you, for being so understanding, and much more. I hope you know how sorry I am for telling you this. Things I'm sure you mostly know, and things you even didn't know. But I am writing all of this, - not only because I know you'll never read it but-, because you know how hard it is for me to talk about feelings face to face to someone. It is hard. I am not and will never be capable of telling you all of this. I'm afraid of how you will react to it. Of how it could change our friendship. Although I hope it wouldn't...
**Probably regretting posting this**
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Midnight thoughts
PoetryThe title says it all. What anyone would think of, late at night, gathered in here. Because why not. (I promise you the chapters get better as you go, I'm continuously writing more and more chapters and I'll be more than glad to see if any of you ca...
