The captain

Chapter 18.

Y/N: Tetsu?
KUROO: (y/n)? You're here.
Y/N: Y-yeah, I thought we were going home together.

I walked up to him, lifted his arm and placed it on my shoulder just to rattle Honoo up.

HONOO: Well aren't you two the cutest?
Y/N: Tetsu, what is she doing here?
HONOO: Oh I just came to pay Tetsu a visit.

She smiled and I clenched my fists at the sound of her calling him by his nickname.

KUROO: She was just leaving.
HONOO: But I haven't even gotten to say what I wanted to say!
KUROO: Cut the crap, Honoo. It's not going to work on us.
Y/N: So that's her name? You know her name?
How do you know her name? Why? Have you been lying to me?
KUROO: (y/n), calm down I'm not lying to you if you'd jus-
Y/N: You said you didn't have a relationship with her, were you lying?
KUROO: I wasn't lying, I was-
HONOO: Well, it seems like you're doing everything by yourselves, I don't even need to bring up (y/n)'s anger issues.
KUROO: Anger issues? What do you mean?
Y/N: You little piece of shit, how fucking dare you?
HONOO: Ops, it slipped...

I could barely hear anything, just a monotone high pitched sound as if I'd lost my hearing, my heart dropped when she spoke those words, I could feel my rage tingling underneath my skin, my hands were trembling with anticipation. That feeling, I had that feeling again. The one where I wanted to scream, the one where I wanted to punch anyone, anything, everything, the one where I wanted to break things, the one where I just wanted to hurt someone, even if it was me. My gym bag fell on the floor, it was like time was stopped, the way Kuroo was worriedly looking at me, Honoo's expression of victory, yes, she managed to rile me up enough just to show Kuroo I was a psychopath. I didn't have control over my body anymore, I just acted on instinct. I lunged over to her and grabbed her by the collar and then mercilessly gave her a punch that contained all of my rage, all of my anger and resentment towards the words she spoke the other day, the way she outed my like that to Kuroo, the way she'd ruined my only chance at love and mostly towards myself, for being this way.
Kuroo didn't even have the time to stop me before I got to her, he barely realized until it was too late and then finally acted, grabbing my waist and pulling me away as I squirmed to go beat up the now unconscious and bleeding Honoo, I didn't even realize how I was acting in front of him, I just was until I heard a familiar voice.

SAKIE: (Y/N)! CALM DOWN, YOU'VE ALREADY GONE TOO FAR!

For some reason only she was able to snap me out of it, I looked at Honoo, lying on the floor slowly regaining consciousness and looking at me absolutely terrified, obviously she had underestimated my issues and was now suffering the consequences. I broke down, crying as my wounds and scars were now open again, not just metaphorically, but also physically, my recently healed broken knuckles that I had gotten stitched up were carelessly pushed to the limit. All I could think about was that night in my house, my family terrified for me, perhaps even of me. My sister's arms holding me tight back then were now Kuroo's. He was visibly confused, but didn't hesitate to do his best and act upon that situation. Sakie hurried to stop Honoo's bleeding with a handkerchief and then carefully picked her up and accompanied her inside the gym to sit down on a bench. I was still in disbelief, all my hard work to keep my anger in check. Gone. And so would be Kuroo after seeing who I really was.

SAKIE: Are you alright?
HONOO: Not really... Hehe. I suppose I deserved it.
SAKIE: You did, but it shouldn't have been like this, it shouldn't have been from her. Do you know how much trouble you've caused now? You've opened up a painful wound and not only that, you've also taken away her motivation to be better, you ruined her hard work, you truly broke her.
HONOO: I suppose I never really thought about the consequences, I thought Tets- Kuroo-san would stop her.
SAKIE: He tried, but he didn't expect it to happen, so he didn't stop her in time.
HONOO: Never really thought about that either...
SAKIE: You're a really shitty person, and you've got a sick mind.
HONOO: Oh I know now, I guess it's best if I do go back to the mental hospital...
SAKIE: Why did they even let you out...