safe with me. / c yelich. ✔️

65.

c h r i s t i a n .

Going to practice today was rough. I didn't want to leave Nadia alone, that was the last thing I wanted to do. She didn't deserve it. She needed me, but I had to be at my job. I know Aspen is a phone call away if I feel that she needs to be with her sister, but, that should be me with her.

I really wasn't doing too hot in practice both during BP and then field practice. I honestly didn't want to be there, I wanted to be at home. I just shook my head, tossing my bat down and went into the dugout.

"Hey, Yelich. You okay?" Travis asked me as he walked over to the dugout and sat by me.

I shook my head again, putting my face in my hands. I hadn't told any of my teammates that Nadia had a miscarriage, no one knew she was even pregnant.

"What's going on?" He frowned, patting my back as I just took a deep breath, trying to figure out what I wanted to say.

"I'd rather not talk about it out here..." I say, getting up and walked into the clubhouse.

"Is everything okay?" Travis asked me, following behind me.

I stopped in my tracks, turning to face him. "Nadia was a couple of weeks pregnant and she had a miscarriage last night, Trav.." I said, the tears were spiking up in my eyes. "And I couldn't do anything to prevent it from happening..." I just looked down at my feet and Travis embraced me in a tight hug. I knew he was concerned for me, he hadn't hugged me that tight in a long while.

"Shit, C...I didn't know that at all. I didn't even know Nadia was pregnant.." He pulled back from the hug, putting his hands on my arms, "I'm so sorry..." He said, hugging me again.

I just sighed, closing my eyes as tears fell down my cheeks.

"Go on home, man. Go be with your wife, she needs you right now. Missing one day of practice won't kill you. Counsell will understand." Travis told me and I nodded, sniffling as I looked at him, "You need to be with Nadia, baseball isn't important right now. You two need to grieve.."

"I just didn't want to let you guys down too.." I said, taking off my hat and put it in my back pocket, "The last thing I want is to disappoint more people.."

"You aren't disappointing anyone. You go home and be with your girl and your son. They need you. We'll be fine here. I'll explain everything to the coaches." He patted my shoulder before I walked into the clubhouse, changing out of my practice clothes, back into a pair of sweats and a hoodie. I grabbed my phone and keys and went home. I didn't even want to look at baseball for a while...

****

I still hadn't slept. Going on almost 48 hours of no sleep, I didn't want to. I didn't want to fall asleep and have something happen to Nads or even Wyatt. I was scared to fall asleep, honestly.

I drank caffeine to keep me awake and even though I hated coffee, it was my best friend these last couple of hours. Nadia walked into the kitchen, wearing one of my hoodies that fell to her knees and looked at me, "Have you slept at all, babe?" She asked me and I shook my head,

"I don't want to, I'm not tired.." I lied, I was exhausted. I needed sleep so bad.

"You need to go sleep, Christian." She told me, going up to me and set the cup of coffee on the counter, "You haven't slept since before this all happened, I need you to go and get some sleep. I'm fine, trust me.." She said, wrapping her arms around my waist, "I want you to get rest and feel better. You're just going to make yourself sick by staying up.."

I take a deep breath, hugging her tight. "I'm so sorry.."

Nadia looked up at me, resting her chin on my chest, "Baby, you don't need to keep apologizing. Nothing is your fault. It's not my fault either, it just happened. We have to learn to move on from it and start fresh. You need to go lay down and get some sleep, you're worrying me.."

"What if something happens to you?" I ask her, "What if you need me and I'm in a dead sleep? What if something happens with Wyatt and I need to help you," I was cut off by Nadia's lips on mine. She did this a lot when I would start to ramble and over worry.

She pulled back from the kiss, resting her hands on my cheeks, "I am okay. Wyatt is okay. I need you to be okay. I need you to go and rest for me, please..." Nadia begged, looking in my eyes, "I'll come cuddle you for a little bit if you want that too.."

"I would like that.." I say quietly before she grabs my hand and walked into the bedroom, moving the blankets so I could get under them and she crawled in bed next to me and laid her head on my chest.

"Everything is going to be okay..." She whispered, "It may not seem like it right now, but it will. We're going to get through this, I promise you." She said quietly before kissing my chest, gently. "I love you so much.."

"I love you.." I whisper, closing my eyes as I could feel them start to get heavy. I definitely needed sleep, and it was calling my name.

A couple of hours later, I woke up to see it was 5 in the evening and Nadia wasn't next to me. I rubbed my eyes, stretching out before walking out of the bedroom to see Wyatt and Nadia in the living room, watching something on Disney+ and heard Wyatt giggling.

I sat on the couch across from them and Wyatt looked over at me, smiling, "Hi daddy!" He said, getting off of Nadia's lap and ran over by me, climbing up on the couch I was sitting on and kissed my cheek, wrapping his arms around my neck.

"Hi, buddy." I say, looking at him as he sat down in my lap. I look over at Nadia and smile small, "Hi, babe.."

"Hi," Nadia smiled at me. "Did you sleep good?"

I nod, "Yeah, didn't realize I slept that long.." I shrug, fixing Wyatt's hair that was messy and all over the place.

"You needed it," She told me and patted the spot by her, "Come sit by me.." I nod, lifting Wyatt off of my lap and walked over by her, moving to lay on the couch and had her lay on me. "Much better.." She said quietly, kissing my jawline.

Wyatt frowned, "Hey!" He crossed his arms, looking at us.

"Come sit on daddy's legs, bubby." Nadia told him before he climbed on the couch and sat on my legs, pulling a blanket over him. "Better?"

Wyatt nodded, "Yeah, momma." I smile at Wyatt then look at Nadia,

"How are you doing..?" I ask her, running my hand through her hair.

"I'm doing alright...My hips still kind of hurt, but the doctor said to expect that.." She told me, "How are you feeling?"

I shrug, "Better, feeling more awake and not like a zombie." I replied, "But, you know, going through the motions.."

She nodded, rubbing my arm. "We're gonna be okay.." Nadia said quietly, "I promise.."

I kiss her head, pulling the blanket up as I cuddle her closer. "I'm glad you're feeling a little better," I drew circles with my thumbs on her lower back, "Sorry about the hip pain.."

She shrugged, "They said to expect it.."

"I wish there was something I could do," I tell her just feeling miserable.

"You holding me is enough, babe." She kissed my cheek. "I am more comfortable when laying with you anyways. Even if our little man is on your legs," She lets out a giggle and looks over at Wyatt who's staring intently at the television.

This is what I needed; Content and at peace with the people I love. Despite the things that have happened, somehow Nadia and I are gonna get through this.