safe with me. / c yelich. ✔️

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n a d i a 

Being able to get back into modeling was something I had been dreaming of doing since I had Willow. I was ready to get my body back in shape, and ready to get back to doing what I loved. It had been a while, but I was ready. 

But with getting back into modeling, meant that I was going to be traveling again, which meant leaving my babies and Christian. I knew he would be able to handle Wyatt and Willow, but my motherly instincts always kick in and I just get scared and anxious. Christian is an amazing father, though, I know he can do it.

***

"Momma, pwease, no go.." Wyatt said, hugging my leg. "I no want you to weave.." He sniffled and I just frowned, picking him up.

"Buddy, momma's gotta go to work. I won't be gone for long though. Daddy's got so much fun planned for you and your little sister, you're going to have so much fun, you won't even realize I'm gone!" I tell him, kissing his cheek. I felt horrible, I just wanted to be able to bring my family with me wherever I went, but I knew that wasn't possible. 

Wyatt teared up, laying his head on my shoulder, "No, momma..You stay.." He hiccuped, wiping his eyes. "Daddy and sissy go too.." 

I sigh, "I wish I could take you all, buddy, I really do.." I rub his back, "But I'm only gone for a couple of days and then when I get home, we can cuddle and watch Disney movies all night, okay?" 

Christian walked in, holding Willow. "He trying to make you stay?" He frowned, walking up to me and rubbed Wyatt's back with one hand, "Buddy, momma's not gonna be gone long! Plus, you got me and sissy to hang out with!" 

Wyatt looked over at Christian and shook his head, "I want mommy stay.." 

"I do too, buddy, trust me, but I think you, me and your little sister are going to be just fine. Momma's gotta go to work! She gets to go take lots of pictures and look pretty for the camera. Don't you want her to do that?" Christian asked him, smiling at me. 

He nodded, "Yeah.." 

"So you gotta let her leave and go to work if you want her to do that, bud!" Christian tells him, laying Willow in her bassinet and took Wyatt from me. "I promise, you can sleep in bed with daddy and we can watch whatever you want, and whatever you want for dinner, we can have..How does that sound?"

"Okay, daddy.." He sniffled and wrapped his arms around Christian's neck. I don't know how he did it, he was a natural when it came to calming the kids down.

Christian looked at me, "You travel safe, alright? Call me when you get there, and we can FaceTime later tonight if you want," He tells me before kissing me, softly. 

I pull away from the kiss and nod, "Of course, baby. You sure you're going to be okay with the two of them?"

He nods, "Yeah, baby. I got this. Plus, your sister offered to come over and help if I needed it, but I think I'll be okay." He smiles at me, "You go have fun, you have nothing to worry about. I don't want you stressing out over anything. I got this all taken care of." 

"Okay, baby.." I tell him, "I love you, and I'll miss you."

"You know I'll miss you too, babe." He set Wyatt down on the bed and hugged me tightly. It was the first time in a long while that Christian and I would be apart for a couple of days, it felt a little weird, honestly. I knew we were going to be okay, though. "I love you so much.." He said before kissing me again.

I kissed him back, placing a hand on his cheek before pulling away, "I love you too. I'll call you when I get to my hotel and get settled in.." I said, smiling at him before grabbing my bag and walked over by Willow's bassinet and kissed her forehead, "You be good for daddy, Willow...Mommy loves you so much and she'll see you in a couple of days.." 

Christian took my bag from me and walked to the door with me, "I got it, babe. Everything's going to be okay."

"There are bottles in the fridge with milk in them, you know her eating schedule. Her changing table should be stocked, and-.." I began to ramble and he cut me off by kissing me. I pull away and smile, "Sorry, I just, it's the first time leaving the two of them, I am just nervous.." 

"Don't be. Wyatt's gonna be a huge help with me, and I think we'll be okay. I got this all under control. We'll videochat later and after your shoot tomorrow. I'll keep you updated on the kiddos and what they're doing." Christian explains to me, reassuring me that it's going to be alright. That's all I need. That reassurance that my babies and my husband were going to be okay.

"I love you." I tell him before kissing him again. 

"And I love you," He says before kissing me back. He pulls away and opens the door for me, "Safe travels, babe. I'll see you in a couple of days." He tells me before I grab my bag and walk out of the house, leaving my babies and Christian to get back into my job.

***

It definitely was weird being away from the kids. I knew that Christian had it all under control, he was a super dad. But, it's been three days since I left home and I was missing them like crazy. I was missing being able to hold my sweet Willow in my arms as her beautiful eyes just looked up at me. I missed Wyatt begging to watch Paw Patrol, and I really missed being in Christian's arms. God, this was hard.

"I bet you're ready to get home and be with your family, huh?" My friend, Vanessa asked me as she sat across from me.

I nodded, "More than anything. I know Christian's got it under control, but I know that part of me feels like I need to be there. The kids have two parents, not just one, y'know?" I tell her, earning a nod, "I just...I don't know.."

"I think you're just nervous because it's the first time leaving the kids. I know I definitely felt that when I left Emmett and our little girl, Taylor alone. I knew he was nervous beyond belief, because we work in a tag-team, but I knew that he was fully capable of being both mommy and daddy for a couple of days.." Vanessa explained to me, giving me a little bit more reassurance.

"I think it's just that I'm so used to being on a schedule with Willow, since she's still such a little baby, and I'm so cautious about everything that being away from home just kind of threw me off," I tell her, "But I was so ready to get back into modeling, I missed it so much."

Vanessa smiled, "I missed seeing you on sets! It was a little quiet without you here," She laughed, "But, I love seeing your social media posts and just seeing how happy you are with Christian and how incredibly in love you are with one another, that's the most amazing part." 

I smile, "Well, thank you. He really is my best friend, honestly. I don't know what I would do without him. I mean, never did I think I would be married with two kids already, but, I know it's with the right guy and he is the most amazing father to Wyatt and Willow, I wouldn't want it any other way."

"He really does seem like he loves those kiddos, for sure. I'm glad you found someone who makes you happy like he does, you really deserve that in your life. You deserve nothing but the best, Nads."

"I think I really did get lucky with Christian. I think I got the best.."