1/6/2020
I love you.
I want you.
I need you.
In any and every way.
Kiss me like it's only us here.
Hold me again like it's the last time we'll ever be able to.
Tell me I matter to you, we both know it's true.
This past week with you has been delightfully confusing.
Too many thoughts and things.
Our cuddles on the couches, the kiss on the cheek, the crying episode, the anxiety, the laughing fits, the memory of a new year with you.
It's all beautiful.
Tell me, is it wrong of me, to think things I maybe shouldn't of you, my love?
I have this one scenario in my mind, it's not precise, but it's a general idea that I can't get out.
And I really don't know why, it's embarrassing and, adult.
I just keep thinking, of us in my room under the song colorful light that plays a soft duo.
Me softly leaning in for a kiss and being able to pour my love onto you.
Caressing your face as I smile into the kiss I gave you.
Softly pulling off your shirt and being able to leave kisses down your neck, down your chest, and just anywhere I can. I just want to admire every bit of you.
Leaving love bites in places only I can see.
My scene always starts off with that, more passion than lust I would say.
Depending on my mood, the scene either stops or keeps going.
And I will admit, it's embarrassing my friend, to see you that way.
Because well, s fantasy stays a fantasy right?
I would never be given the chance.
I sometimes think, of just laying down with you until I fall asleep, and just waking up next to you.
That would be a beautiful site despite maybe the messy hair or wrinkled clothes.
You'd still be stunning to me.
Sometimes I think of grabbing my good camera, and driving to Hollywood and just talking the most fun pictures of us and you that I can.
Bright lights in your eyes and a smile I can capture.
Maybe get one of your silly faces.
Or maybe even making a little vlog of adventures we can go on.
But I'm too shy to ask if I could just admire you with the camera lenses.
I think too much about you at times.
But I can't help it, the thought of you makes me happy.
I hope I make you happy, even if it's not as much.
