It's nights like this, alone with my anxiety that I hate.
I'm laying down, listening to sounds for meditation as I try to drown out all the noises in the rest of the house tonight.
Everyone is so loud and it's just driving me insane.
I'm having so much sensory overload it's actually making me want to cry.
I'm trying to fall asleep but it's hard to when no one shuts up and lets me be.
My anxiety is sky rocketing so much, where I feel almost calm.
Like falling into a black pit, and you know there's no point fighting. So you just close your eyes and let the abyss swallow you,
I wanna just cry, breakdown, scream, yell everything into this void.
I wanna just let it all out.
Every last bit of negativity Thats been bottled up for so long.
I just want it released so I do t have this constant tension with myself.
But it seems that day won't come soon.
So I'm stuck here, crying tonight, in a dark lonely room.
Listening to drunken laughter, and stupid conversations from the other side of this wall.
Just my mind begging for nothing but peace within myself for tonight.
