This was something I kept away in my phone, and it dates 1/1/2020.
"I cling to you, for im do terrified to lose one of my only lights in life. Sometimes I sit back, and realize how YOURE one of the only good things I have left. Im so glad I was able to spend this night with you, it means more than you could ever know or understand.
I'm sorry I'm so clingy, I know I'm annoying. Honestly, damn it I just love being so close to you. I just wish I wasn't an idiot. All night, I wanted to just kiss your stupidly beautiful face all over and just give you the softest kiss. I was so tempted at so many points, but I didn't because, well I'm terrified of losing you. I'm so scared that I'll say or do one thing, and you'll be gone.
But I respect you, and I wouldn't do something without you consenting or telling me it's okay.
Thank you for being in my life, and staying in it as long as you have. I'm really happy I have you."
I tend to keep a lot of writing and notes to myself, for I am terrified of judgement.
But I no longer have fear in it.
I can't change how people look at me, i can't change my life.
But the people who truly want me, and accept me with not care, and read my writing with open arms, because they love me.
