9/28/19
"had a good an long talk with my best friend tonight, and I think it's the first time in a really long time I finally just, broke in front of someone. We were in my room and I had my lights going with music and were kinda just talking about life, and people in our lives.
And fuck, I just broke down and started crying in front of him.
I told him so much, and he held my hand, and told me how strong I am to be here to this day, and how I matter, and how despite me struggling with this internal war I'm having, that I'll be better one day, and that he'll always be here for me.
He then proceeded to open up to me, and I saw I side of him I haven't seen before, and heard him talk about things I didn't know he felt or thought.
God I admire him so much.
He's such a genuine and humble person with one of the kindest hearts I have ever known.
He doesn't deserve to feel any pain, or anything that'll cause him stress.
If I could give him the world I would, god I fucking love him so much.
He checks everything off on my list in what I just want and need in a person, but I know sadly he's not the one for me simply because he thinks I can't be one for him.
But as long as I have him, I'm content, because he makes me so happy, and my life so much better"
