11:58pm
By the time I finish this it will technically be tomorrow but let's just pretend this night will last a little longer.
I dunno why I'm uploading, i don't have much reason to be, for not much is happening.
I guess it's just the usual problem of insecurity fucking up my brain again, as usual.
But I'm working on it.
Learning to be better so I'm not constantly burdening the people around me, and to quit hurting myself.
I keep trying to do things that will make me happier with myself but I feel I fuck up every time.
i cut my hair, which was really fucking stupid because now i just look stupid.
I was tempted to cut more to make it cuter but i decided against it because I was honestly in the middle of a panic attack when I was cutting my hair.
