12/2/2019
"it hurts so much honestly.
it hurts a lot.
i just keep fucking up over and over with everyone in my life and i feel so fucking useless.
i feel so unwanted and ugly.
i thought my life was okay right now.
and now tonight everything came crashing. I already had a lot on my mind, and this pushed me even deeper into the hole my mind was in.
I have never felt more, embarrassed.
So fucking pathetic and unwanted.
I feel like nothing.
I don't want to even try to be anything to anyone anymore.
What's the point?
I'm gonna be gone one day anyways. And years after I'm gone there will be no one to remember me anyways, I'm just another temporary face on this old world.
I have work at 6:30am tomorrow and here I am, crying my eyes out tonight.
This is gonna fucking suck"
