Well is first if May right now, it's actually May 2 now because it's 2am.
The neighborhood band a small block party since we've all been on quarantine, it started and a bonfire with us and a neighbor, next tkmbg i know everyone is coming outside like old days and ja him out and laughing and we're all having fun.
It's so weird being older now because last time we had a gathering like this was eight years ago and I feel so happy to experience it from a different perspective.
Can I be honest?
I'm kinda buzzed haha and I'm just, everyone kept offering me drinks and all and it's weird because I had to limit myself and just be kinda like nooooo guessssss im babyyyyyyy.
It's okay.
They asked me so much about my life and I love talking to them because we all know eachother since we are all neighbor.
they asked about my current boyfriend and it's so hard to not gush about him.
Talking about is ring bff sand how I liked him and how my ex hated him and how I ended up falling in love and just agghhh
I love my boyfriend so much.
I just wanna cuddle him and give him all the kisses and hugs and help him grow in life and he himself
I really want ya to progress in life together and f he ave goals.
I love him so mich and I know he doesn't know how to love me back and that's okay.
I learned I loved him a long time ago and I can't expect him to suddenly love me.
But I hope we stay together long enough for him to know what love is.
Because I love him a lot.
More than anyone I have ever dated
Yeah yes special me
My brain keeps saying so many crazy things, but I need to calm down you know?
Like I'm young and so is he but like,
I want him forever, and I want to spend my life with him.
MYbe be DOESNT feel the same and that's okay.
YO what of i married him,
That's a super cute idea yeah?
Yeah I like that idea, marrying my best friend, yeah and living in a cute little house and yesyesyes
I love my boyfriend lots.
Bit he doesn't feel the same sadly but that's okay, I won't live anyone else the way I love him and if it wasn't meant to be with him,
I'll just live my own dreams alone.
I Nelly eve HES worth figjuntjing for for he probably doesn't see me the way I see him.
It's a mkay, I love him.
Even if he gets up one day and leaves me, i wouldn't fight back.
I love him so much, I wouldn't force him to be with me if he isn't happy.
I only want him happy, even if tgat happiness isn't me.
Can you tell I'm buzzed typing this? I hope not bec that's a little embarrassing.
Oh well though.
People say drunk words are sober thoughts, and im not drunk but maybe I'm being too honest right now.
YO
WHAT IF I MARRIEDMY BOYFRIEN
TEAH THAT WOULD BE SO CUTE
Utah yeah I love him so much haha yeah he's just so handsome and hot and cute and he's so sweet Nd his voice is my favorite to listen to especially when we lay down together and he talks so softly.
I live when he sings or whistles to himself and he probably thinks no one is paying attention but I am and I love it so much.
His laugh is so happy and makes me laugh and his smile Isaí pretty to me and I want to make him smile do the time and his hair Isaí beautiful.
It's so long right now, but even if he cuts it I'll always live him hair and his hands caress me so gently and his lips feel so soft against mine, he's my favorite person ever.
I love feeling his hands run through my hair when we kiss and just YGH HE DRIVES ME INSANE
yeah I love my boyfriend a lot and i could y'all about him all night but I'm tired and should probably sleep Pool lollllll.
Yeahhhhhh I love him gooooodnigjttttt
