Dasey (Derek and Casey) Life With Derek

Guilt

The next morning I got up and went to the bathroom but as usual it's first come,first serve and I wasn't on the ball.Ed was in there and Marti was waiting along with a very annoyed Lizzie.

I didn't know how to calm down Casey,last night I could feel her emotions everywhere but guilt was the strongest,I feel it to a lot.Should I just find a way to break up and somehow come back to just trying to be step siblings because maybe that was for the best.The minute Casey kissed me that night,that was the moment that everything became a dirty little secret,which will wear both of us down.

I honestly feel the pervasive feeling of guilt every time I see Nora and my Dad feeding baby Blake,whenever I chatted with Ed or hugged Lizard.I felt worse when I saw Marti.I wanted to run and never come home,somehow I felt like I didn't deserve my family that once we expose this that we will lose them.

As Ed opened the door I was brought out of my head and waited as Lizzy went in,I heard a click and saw Casey with her bed head and smile.I felt my heart beat and that tension every time I saw her like a string connecting us,invisible to others but obvious to us. "Morning Derek" I smiled and "morning Case" I just looked at her,the world felt blank,melting away with just black and her there.My heart was flipping and I felt out of control,Case always made me feel that way.

Lizzy left and I went in "you snooze you lose" I smirked at a perturbed Casey "DEREK" and I closed the bathroom door. It was fun to tease her but the emotion behind it was different,so I got ready and came out. "Took you long enough" I laughed "perfection takes time" and went downstairs for breakfast.

Once we were all seated my Dad and Nora told us we would be going to a restaurant to celebrate Casey and I passing our midterms and being home for reading week. Everyone was excited and to be frank so was I,we all ate and the rest of the afternoon consisted of Ed and I playing the newest Babe Raider heck Casey and Lizzy joined and it became player versus player. Winner got comfy chair privileges for the rest of the days we were home. Casey and Lizzy won and we all left for diner,I'd let Casey win because I saw how much she wanted to and lately her happiness means a million times more to me than ever before.

We went to the Mandarin which is great because it's all you can eat.I love it and once we were seated for our party Nora and my Dad suggested a few pictures to capture the moment. "Come on you two one photo" but we both saw there were no extra chairs available and Casey leaned next to me "oh no your cut off in the photo" so my dad said "just sit in Dereks lap" and we both laughed but both agreed that they make the photo quick and with a snap of the camera a moment was captured.

I was wearing my hipster glasses for fun while Casey was put together with a white fedora hat,we looked cute in the photo and the diner continued but the tension never left between me and Casey.