Dasey (Derek and Casey) Life With Derek

Worried

"Hey Derek".
"Hey,can I ask what was that?"
I saw his scared expression but I'm trying to get Bradly on our side.If he becomes an ally then maybe things will be easier and we can spend less time defending our relationship and more time having one. I was thinking of how to tell Derek this.

"Not here,lets go to my room".
Tess left once she saw the expressions on our faces telling me she was going to be at the "lucky strike" pub. The door clicked shut and I saw Derek just sit and look at me I've never felt so judged.

"Listen,Derek I want Bradly to be on our side,nothing happened! Nothing ever will!".

"Casey he tried to rape you,he is dangerous and anything he tells you is some sort of manipulation!".

"I'm not an idiot Derek I know that,he tried telling me some things but I am not taking him completely seriously".

"So some part of you is buying his bullshit!?".

"NO! Derek I just want him to get rid of everything on us,I'm doing this for you and me".

"Really than why didn't you ask me before you went off with your almost rapist".

"I didn't know I needed your permission".

"I just would of liked to be in the know,I love you and if he hurt you-".

"He didn't and I love you to!".

"Really because putting yourself at risk like that,going in without a clear plan,and that dance on Halloween!".

"What about it?".

"Casey do you love me? Because you have a crap way of showing it".

"Derek can I dance that way with you? If people saw us they'd think oh wow incest".

The silence after that was killing me,I said it but I wanted to say it in a different way.I just meant that being a secret is killing me and that we will never know when we can really be a couple.I stared at Derek and waited for his response and felt like I was going to throw up.But all he said to me was.

"You are right".

And left,I tried to go after him but he had walked out and closed the door so quick that I was scared to.What did that mean?what does it mean.Are we done! I went to sit on my bed and grabbed my pillow and cried on my own.

A few weeks passed by and besides the occasional "hi" or smile I got next to no response from Derek.When I went by his frat to visit his brothers lied and said he was out. People might think he is avoiding his girlfriend but I'm his family.God no I'm not,family does not do what we did.I felt his disappearance from my life,we got back to bickering and no one noticed the break up between the lines.But in private and by myself I cried until I was out of tears.