Dasey (Derek and Casey) Life With Derek

Numb.

"You are so sexy Casey".

"So are you Cody".

That's when I was spun around and with our eyes locking I noticed that Cody had beautiful brown eyes. Also had black/brown hair and just gorgeous. I saw his face was moving closer to mine our breath teasing our lips. With this music loosening me up I looked to the side and was thinking things through. That's when I smiled and Cody kissed me.

"Get it CASE!".

I heard Tess blurt out she was my own personal hype girl tonight. He was a great kisser and I melted easily into his kiss.Everything faded with the heat of everyone in the club and the alcohol.In this moment I wanted to be with Cody and that was as far as I thought it through. And it felt good for the moment but things never just stay in a moment do they?.

After we made out Cody invited me out for coffee the next day.I was drunk still and gave him my number so he could fill me in for the date tomorrow and Tess drove us back,she didn't drink she just liked dancing and had one beer but wasn't drunk and once we were back at the dorm I was grateful we made it back safely.

When I woke up I brushed my teeth and flossed then mouth wash. I felt happy for the first time in weeks but was this date a good idea. Isn't Cody a rebound,shouldn't I still be single right now? This made my stomach feel queasy and I needed a hangover cure. I drank a liter of water last night to help when I woke up but I still felt off. So I went to the room and took some ibuprofen and as I got dressed and ready for the date I felt less physically sick but mentally I didn't know.

Since yesterday was Friday and today was Saturday and I always finished all my assignments early I could but I was searching for an excuse not to go. Which was stupid, Cody was a sweet guy and I shouldn't of used him last night or given out my number,I did a lot of irresponsible things and I can't blame it all on the alcohol. Most of it's on me and how I wanted to feel,Cody doesn't know and neither does Tess.I am pulling people into my emotional recovery without doing the work myself.