Dasey (Derek and Casey) Life With Derek

Memories and Moments.

Everyone came back from getting blood tested and it was Lizard who was a match. She said she was going to do the transfusion and that she will be back soon. I thanked her and hugged her so tight that I probably stopped air from coming through.

"She's...still my big sister and you're family so I'll be right back."

We were all left now in the waiting room trying to make up a topic to talk about. This air was suffocating but it was quickly cut by Marti.

"SMERCK I MISSED YOU!."

"I missed you to Smarti."

And suddenly we were all hugging one another I was angry that it took this to bring us back. I just pushed that emotion to the back of my mind. Tess,Sam and Emily joined in and soon enough we were a blob that took up the hall way and so we all sat down. Once we sat down Nora looked at me and hugged me,she whispered "I'm sorry." I just hugged her tighter.

Nora began to cry and my dad smiled as Ed and Smarti smiled because we all felt the break in the family begin to mend.

"Derek I know I should've tried and it shouldn't of been this to make me see how stubborn I was. I was blinded by anger and I refused to see it any other way. You and Casey aren't blood but you are family. You're her husband and she's your wife. I'm so sorry."

"I understand your anger Nora and I never wanted to hurt you. Casey never wanted to hurt you. But we...we couldn't stay away from one another and I know that's selfish but I love you all and I love Casey."

"Bro...I-I'm so mad at you because you broke our family and I never want to hurt anyone like that. Lizzie was shattered by that day... but I want to stop being angry and I just...I miss you Derek."

"I miss you too Ed... a lot."

Tess,Sam and Emily said they'll go get us some food to let us talk even though this is a hospital hallway. But I think people understand that sometimes you'll see emotional things play out here. We all just kept talking and Marti said she felt so alone and confused when me and Casey ran off. I didn't know that's how she felt or that Ed was scared of what will happen between Nora and George. It was a good moment before the doctor came out.

"Would you like to meet your child...we've moved them to the nicU.."

"Ah..yes of course but can my family come."

"Sure but you can only go inside they can observe from the glass as a precaution."

"Thank you."

We all followed a nurse to the nicU and once we reached the glass I saw the nurse gesture for me to follow. Everyone observed from the glass and I picked up my son. It was a boy! I was a dad. He is so small and he's sleeping so still.

"Is he healthy? Shouldn't he be crying?."

"He is fine I promise other than being Alittle early he is normal,he is okay."

"Thank god! I was so worried.."

"You can have some time before we put the baby back to rest...do you have any names picked out?."

"We played around with some names but we never had anything concrete."

"There are some baby name books in the nursery here if you'd like to take a look later."

"Sure."

I brought my son over to the window and Nora smiled with my dad wiping away a tear. Ed grinned and Smarti put her hand to the glass thinking maybe my son would wake up but Ed told her to stop. Babies here need their rest. I gave my son over to the nurse and we said hi to baby Blake who was in the hospital nursery so Nora and George could focus on everything going on here. I grabbed the baby name book and started to turn the pages. The more I flipped the more I felt tears fall from my eyes. Casey should be here and I don't want to pick a name without her. I won't. I was consoled by the fam but I felt so cold.

I kept hearing machines beep and voices of doctors around me trying to help. But I was in a field with Derek and as he caressed my hair under this tree I watched the flowers petals in the wind.

"I love it here!."

"I love you."

"Derek I love you too."

Suddenly I saw a memory and it was me and Derek at the LCBO. We were just teens then and we pretended we were pirates even though we were to old to be acting that way. But we still had fun that way. Then another memory of Derek telling me it was real,what he felt for me. I started to feel guilty and I looked at Derek here.

"This isn't real is it?."

"Afraid not..."

"But I can stay."

"You can but you can leave too..if you want."

I heard the doctors voices and they talked amongst themselves saying they'd done all they can and the rest was up to me. So I could stay here and be happy or go back to the world. I was so safe here and warm. But the real Derek is there with our child. I wanted to go back so I followed the memories to the voices and I felt myself run away from this. Life is hard but Derek is there and my child is there. I want to live I want to grow old with Derek. Please heart don't fail me now. I suddenly felt my fingers move and I had a horrible headache. My stomach was a bolder but I still couldn't open my eyes. But I was back. I'm alive.