A year without my love With a Twist

The long drive home part one

Stef's: POV
Ever since we left the restaurant
An hour ago. Lena has been quiet the entire ride, l know what Sara said  hurt Lena's feelings. But Sara needs to grow up, she didn't have to throw Lena's cheating ex Gretchen. Every time l  here that name, it's make think about the time she came over to our house for dinner. Talking about she knows Lena better than me, but I one thing l know Lena married me.  and has a family with me  I feel blessed to be with Lena that I met her in the parking lot of her Job. When she came outside of the school building, the look on her face. Showed she was pissed
Made me realize that I was staring at the woman of my dreams. We had so many moments together like the first time we made love, l was scared to death.Lena had been the first woman to show me what real love was, before we started fostering it was me Lena and Brandon. Now our son is all grown up and married, sometimes I wished if we never loss our little girl what would she be like today. I still remember to this day the day Lena told me she was pregnant. We were at the courthouse about to adopt Callie and Jude, l never told Lena this
That was the happiest day of my life. In the beginning l didn't want Lena to have a baby, it was then l realize l had been only thinking of myself. Sometimes l wish we could go back in time,
When our kids were little. I give anything to See Lena smile again
Lena doesn't have that spark in her eyes. I know she still struggles with losing Frankie,
All those years ago. We barely talk about the daughter we loss
I really think it hit Lena hard, cause she carried her for five months in her Stomach. My wish for Lena would be to bring back Our precious princess little girl we never got to meet. To lose a child is one of the most hardest things in the world, we planted a cherry tree to honor Francesca Elizabeth Adams Foster  memory it's at our old  house back yard. I wish there was a way, we could go and visit Frankie's tree. But we don't know who brought our old house, only To gave Lena her Joy back, l know she still cries cause.
I caught her a few times. In the middle of the night, she blames herself cause her body felled her
I can't help to feel loss. Cause Lena is hurting more than anybody realizes. I tried to get her to see a Lena to therapist, after everything that took place
I sometimes wish l  could give a baby myself,  I see the way she is with our kids. When we first got the twins, Lena was so nurturing with Mari. She did her hair and dressed her up in the cutest little dresses. Lena didn't think she was a good mother, Lena's mom never showed her  any type affection. It had been hard  For Lena to show that part of herself
With our daughters.