Kitten

Chapter 39: Hidden thoughts

Alexander

Last night was by far the best night of my life. Sex was something most people enjoyed, but the experience I shared with Lily was unlike anything I had ever experienced.

I viewed sex as a casual thing only meaning to bring pleasure for a short time from a random girl. But having sex with the person you love and care about was just perfect. Of course my sweetheart was a little insecure especially after all the shit Matthew put her through, but I kissed all her troubles away and made her see how beautiful she was.

Last night was the first time I had made love. And it was perfect, she was perfect.

Looking over at my sleeping angel, I lifted up my finger and stroked it gently across her delicate skin.

"I'm falling for you, harder than I could have ever imagined sweetheart".

Lily moaned softly in her sleep as I pulled away from her.

Falling back onto my pillow, I stared up at the ceiling of the apartment I once called home swarmed by a million emotions. I couldn't even recognise myself anymore. This wasn't the Alexander you heard about in rumours and feared. No, this was a man who dreamed of having a happily ever after with the most beautiful girl, raise children and grow old together. I wanted it and craved a future with her by my side.

But I was far from deserving. A man like me doesn't deserve to lay beside someone so perfect, so untainted. She was too good for me. If I brought her into my world, all I'd bring her is pain and fear. She was the innocent one in all of this.

"I'll never let anyone hurt you baby. I promise I'll always keep you safe, even from the ones you trust most".

Lily began to stir and to my shock turned over and gazed up at me with sleepy eyes.

"What did you say?" She groaned before rubbing her eyes.

"I was saying how lucky I was to have you in my life".

Lily hummed happily before throwing her leg over mine.

Kitten's eyes suddenly shot open as her knee pressed against my manhood. Exhaustion swarmed over the both of us after 3 vigorous rounds of sex that neither of us bothered to put our underwear back on.

"You know, last night was absolutely amazing kitten. I didn't know you were such a vixen. My vixen".

My lips quirked up into a confident smirk as kitten pulled the duvet over herself and mumbled a quiet thank you before pulling the duvet down and letting out an adorable laugh.

"Hey Alexander?".

"Hmm?".

Grabbing my kitten, I pulled her into my chest and stroked her head softly. Her naked body lay half on me as she placed gentle kisses on my chest.

"I love you" she breathed out effortlessly.

I felt my body erupt in goosebumps hearing her say those 3 simple words. 3 words that meant so much. Three words I didn't deserve to have directed towards me. I felt the urge to say it back to her, but it was as if my mouth was frozen.

I love you too. I could only think it, but my mouth refused to say it back to her.

"Kitten, as much as I love you being naked and all, but you're tempting the beast when you accidentally rub yourself on me".

Kitten suddenly pulled away with an apologetic look, but in her eyes I could tell she was sad that I didn't say it back. I prayed she thought it was because I felt a little nervous to say it back to her.