Arturo is a old childhood friend. We knew each other since I was in 2nd grade and he was in 1st at Canterbury. I don't have that many memories of him from my years at that elementary school. During my time there I was the only girl in my class every year. Ones in a while there would be another girl that would enter the class but then she would end up getting expelled. Yeah there was 5th grade when there were two other girls in my class. Jysiania (I didn't spell her name right) and Yasmine but they were in 6th grade and graduated that year. Anyways, I was extremely boy crazy back then and so I would call all the boys in my class that was in the same grade. I was in life skills. In life skills there would be 1st grade, 2nd grade, and 3rd grade in the same class and then 4th, 5th, and 6th grades in the same class. Because he was in the grade below me I wasn't interested in him. The main boys I liked were Kenny and Felix.
Then I left Canterbury and went to Sullivan Middle School for 7th grade. I don't remember Arturo was there when I was there. I left and went to Claremont for 8th grade and that would be when he would have gone to Sullivan. I wish I had stayed another year there instead of going to Hell. For High School I went to Worcester Tech and he went to North High. (He told me today when I saw him). We did see each other a couple of years ago when I posted about Safe Homes and he commented asking what it is. I told him about it and he came to Safe Homes soon after that. He went there a couple of times but couldn't keep going because he was going to Ecuador. He's Ecuadorian. Earlier this week he decided to message me on Facebook. We talked and I told him about Salem State and now I am going to QCC. He is going to Fitchburg State. (Which is the same school Said and Edgar are going). He then asked if I would want to hang out with him this Saturday. I told him yeah and he picked me up today at noon. He drives.
We went to Antonio's Pizza. We gotten half vegan cheese and half Hawaiian. We talked a log time even after when we were done eating. He told him the kind of girls he is interested in and he did say he's not into Caucasians which is another word for whites. (I'm write) I am the same way when it comes to guys. I used to be into guys that are not white. (Josh is white). My only exception. When he told me that though I then said "Then you won't be interested in me." I was kinda joking. He then said something in response to that but I forgot what he said. He called me adorable and it seemed like he would be interested in me.
After he payed the check and we left he drove us to Elm park and we walked around for a couple of hours, talking about different things. I kind of had a mental break down talking about what is going on with me and Josh and filling him in with all that. He gave me a hug and it felt nice. After our walk we went over to That's entertainment which made me think of Josh a little because I had brought him there ones and he is into that kind of stores. It's a comic book store. While me and Arturo where there I saw my friend Richard who I haven't seen since high school. Richard and Arturo met and they hit if off talking about horror movies and comic books. I told Richard that me and Emma are not friends anymore and because I had already told that long story to Arturo I didn't feel like going over it again so I told him just that she gave me her cat and then asked for him back. Me and Arturo left and went to the Irish Festival. It cost money to go in so he payed and we walked around. I wish I had money on me. There was too many people and I wasn't impress with the food so we left.
When we were walking back to his car and we were talking about the possibility of us dating. I told him that because of what I went through I don't think it would be a good idea for me to be in a relationship with anyone. I told him I don't want to use him as a rebound to get over Josh like how I did with Edgar to get over Said. Arturo understood and agreed for us to just be friends. We hung out in his car trying to figure out where to go to eat. We watched some videos together and then he decided to bring me to Saveport. You can eat there and played video games so it's another place that made me think of Josh because I know if I would tell him about this place he would be interested in going. I hate that I miss him after all of this. I gotten my food and we played a couple of video games. I took a picture of us and put it on Facebook. My mom asked if Arturo is my boyfriend now. I told her no. We both laugh a little about it. While we were playing games and we were talking he was looking at me the same way Josh would look at me. This scares me since I know now how easy it is to fall in love with someone. I fall in love with Josh so quickly during our 5 months relationship and I'm afraid that I will fall in love with Arturo and then what if things don't work out? I still had a really good time with him. It felt nice seeing him after all these years and we do plan on going to see Birds of Pray at Showcase Cinema. (It's not a date. Just two friends going to see a movie). I asked him if we ever do decide to be more then just friends can we have a conversation about it first. He told me yes and gave me a fist bump. He also said "Slow and steady wins the race." I don't know I just feel like I am a mess. I really need to talk to Josh about everything including about Arturo. I know I'm not going to be able to "move on" unless we at least restore our friendship.
Arturo drove me home and walked me to the door which really felt like an ending of a date but it's not a date. I just don't want to get hurt again and to lose our friendship. Besides we had just reunited after years of not seeing each other. I want to make sure we are able to see each other more then just this weekend before I decide in given this a chance. I also want to see what happens with Salem State if I get accepted for grad school. Although it seemed like he would move to Salem. He's a cop and he told me he know how to use a gun. He wants to be a detective or a crimologist. I told him I think detectives are sexy and he was like "What?" I just smiled at that. He only told me about him wanting to be a detective because I told him I am afraid of cops and I don't feel comfortable with guns.
I can't wait to see him again tomorrow and I hope Josh will talk to me soon. Now I have a struggle. I didn't mean for this to happen. I just feel that if me and Arturo would be boyfriend and girlfriend then there is a chance that I'll fall for him just as quick as I fall for Josh and lose our friendship too.
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