My travel log 5

First official Date

Today was finally the first official date for me and Arturo. We have decided to be in a relationship the Monday after I found out I didn't get accepted again at Salem State on March 16th. The day before St. Patrick Day. We haven't been on a date because the virus that forced everyone to stay home. Now that my state is reopening we can finally go on a date. We have hung out a few times as things started to reopen but I haven't felt like those were real dates and I been struggling with my feelings. Not sure if I truly have feelings for him and the fact that I have also been struggling with depression and missing Josh. 

Today, we went to Nu Cafe now named Nu Kitchen but I still call it Nu Cafe. I wasn't sure how it was going to be like and how we would feel. When he finally got here I went into his car and gave him a kiss on the cheek. Then we went to Nu Cafe. We went inside with our masks and I ordered my beloved white hot chocolate and he gotten some tea. He wanted to get Jasmine tea but they were all out so he gotten something else. We sat down and talked. We gotten our drinks, take off our masks so we can drink and continued talking. We talked mostly about history and what have been going on. I love talking to someone who I can have a deep conversation about this stuff. I was also talking about certain people in my family tree that I have discovered such as King Henry VIII and the other King Henrys and William the Conquer. We were also talking about his family. He was descendant from Incas.  He is Ecuadorian, little bit Italian, and a little bit of German. He's interesting in working on his own family tree too so I told him the website I use so he can get started. We also took my hands while we were talking and I went next to him in his seat and gave him a hug and we were lovey dovey and kissed.So I guess I do have feelings for him. That put some worries away and I felt happier that I can call it a date. I have talked about how since the tattoo places are reopening that whenever I get a job I'll finally get a tattoo which was something I been wanting to get since when I was friends with Emma. But after I stop being her friend I gave up on that idea. I was thinking since Arturo have a brother who is a tattoo artist that I might ask him when I have money if he could give me my first tattoo. When I get my first tattoo I want to have someone there with me that I know and trust. I would also feel comfortable if I somewhat know the artist of the tattoo I am planning on getting. I would like to get the Stay Strong tattoo like Demi Lovato because I struggle with self harm but I don't feel like I deserve it because I did went back to it in April. I told him that I don't want to disappoint him if I ever do that again. He told me that he wants to support me which makes me feel good. It was nice and then we left and we talked in his car watching videos before he drove and dropped me off. 

I hope he will come with me to hang out with Virginia and Jeff Thursday and Friday. That would be fun. After he dropped me off and went inside Virginia facetimed me so I talked to her for a little bit. I feel bad for her because she is all alone living by herself in a studio appointment.