Always

thirty-five

L U N A
"When it gets heavy
No, I'll never let you be all alone."

"If you don't start talking about last night right now, I swear I'm going to pour this smoothie right over your head." I looked up from my phone and gave Leo an amused look which he simply returned with a dead serious one of his own. I had to hold myself back from letting out a humorous chuckle at how determined he looked as he clutched the plastic cup in one hand as his icy blue eyes drilled into me.

"Okay." I said, pocketing my phone before turning in my seat so I was facing him, my amused expression never wavering from my face. "What do you want to know?"

He raised his eyebrows before placing his cup away and clasping his hands together in front of him. "Everything."

"I already told you everything that happened." I shrugged, hoping he wouldn't see through the lie. I had told Leo basically everything, skipping over the part where Kyler had to literally pull me out of the café because I was on the verge of tears and take me to the rooftop to comfort me.

I tried to convince myself it was because I didn't feel like talking about what went down last night after we encountered Tobias but in reality, I knew it was simply because I didn't want Leo worrying about me. I already felt horribly guilty because Kyler had to take care of me after the date and having another person worry about my well-being would be too much. I just didn't deserve it. 

"Yeah, you told me what happened. But you didn't tell me how you feel now." My heart sank at his words and I looked up at him with an almost hurt expression.

"What do you mean?" I mumbled, quickly masking the hurt over with a blank face.

"How do you feel about the date, Tobias and mainly, Kyler?" I almost sighed in relief wen he rephrased his question but a huge weight dropped on me at the thought of Tobias.

Last night, I felt absolutely horrible that he had to see Kyler and I in such an....intimate moment. And I hated how hurt he looked and what pained me even further was how furious he got at me for choosing Kyler over him.

But then again, I hated it so much that he just couldn't accept that Kyler actually made me so, so happy. And it was true. Kyler did make me feel so incredibly happy and so safe every time he was around. He didn't even have to do anything because simply being near him was more than enough to put me at ease instantly.

Even though the doubts and fears about this relationship working out have been nagging me nonstop, Leo was right. I can't spend my days in fear that one day I'll have to lose him or else I'll lose him even earlier than I'd like.

"I don't know." I murmured, resting my chin in my hands as I gazed out at the empty football fields. "I mean, I really like Kyler. So much that it scares me." I let out a light, nervous chuckle before biting my lip. "And last night really changed a lot of things for me. And to be honest, I'm okay with it; this entire relationship, I'm okay with it."

"I think." I added in a whisper.

***

Meet me under the bleachers in five. A huge smile spread on my lips and I looked up, my eyes automatically searching for the familiar pair of stormy blue eyes and in seconds, I noticed him leaning against the lockers with his friends surrounding him but he didn't seem to be paying much attention to them with his gaze trained on me. My heart fluttered as a dangerous smirk curled on his lips and he cocked his head towards the school exit, and damn me for thinking that the small action made him look insanely attractive.