Your Sweet Love

Chapter 26

Your POV

"So another round huh?" I ask. "Alyssa your song?" She goes back to the piano and begins playing a very recognizable song to me once more. Her voice matched it, yet didn't. Don't get me wrong it's really good, but it could be better.

"I knew you once,
And it was nice,
I knew your brain and your heart
And all your insides.

"Oh I could tell
Just with look
What you were thinking.
That's all it took..

"You shared your secrets
And I shared mine

"Silence was comfy
Without having to try.

"We swapped our smiles
Gifted advice
Yes
I knew you once
And it was nice." It was slightly shorter than I expected her to sing a song. I get to the mic and smirk a devilish smirk as I knew I'd win this stupid, yet fun game. "Who's ready??" The room cheers again as I grab my guitar. I talk into the mic before starting. "I just want to say I love this song and this artist. If it weren't for this song, I'd probably never had been able to sing in front of you guys. It's a great song that speaks to me, and hopefully moves you too." I give a large smile before strumming.

"Dear Insecurity
Why you gonna take your hands off me?
When you ever gonna let me be
Proud of who I am?
Oh insecurity
When you gonna take your hands off me?
When you gonna let me be
Just the way I am?
Dear insecurity..." I smile while singing.

"I hate the way you make me feel.
I hate the things you make me think.
You make me sick to my stomach.
I wish that I wasn't me.

"Some days when I wake up
I see myself in the mirror
I feel like what shouldn't be
Couldn't be any clearer
From my nose
To my clothes
To my chin
To my skin...
I'll never be good
And not ever again.

"For you!
So I changed for you!
And I died for you
Then you made me blue!
If I were you
I'd hate me too...
But I already feel like you do.

"Because you tell me
'I'm not worth shit'
And
'The bad luck's on purpose'..
And
'If I'm sad then I deserve it'.

"But underneath the surface
I'm hurting,
Searching,
And learning
My imperfections make me perfect.

"Dear insecurity
When you gonna take your hands off me?
When you gonna ever let me be
Proud of who I am?
Oh insecurity..
When you ever gonna take your hands off me?
When you ever gonna let me be
Just the way I am?

"Dear insecurity...
I
Feel like I'm dying on the inside..
But I smile it off.
I'm a mess
I'm depressed
I'm alone
And it's all my fault..

"Did I do something wrong?
This feeling's unfair.
You're making me anxious." I pause and look at the people.
"BUT WHY THE FUCK TO DO I CARE?!
I Overthink everything
Until my thoughts are unpaired.

"I hate everything about
I think I need some air...

"Drink some water
Take a breath..
To a moment to be thankful
For the reasons that you're blessed.
It's not about mistakes you made
Or failures that you had.
It's all about the memories and little things you have.

"Your freckles
And flaws
To your body
And bruises
Your scars to your beautiful birthmarks
The truth is..
We're one in the same
So play the cards that you're dealt.
Nobody likes you more than when you're being yourself...

"Dear insecurity
When you gonna take your hands off me?
When you ever gonna let me be
Proud of who I am?
Oh insecurity,
When you ever gonna let me be just the way I am?
Dear insecurity
When you ever gonna take your hands off me?
When you ever gonna let me be just the way I am?
Dear insecurity...

"I AM
PROUD OF THE PERSON
WHO I AM!
NOBODY'S GONNA TELL ME
WHO I AM!
OR WHO I CAN
BE!
I AM
TAKIN MY LIFE INTO
MY HANDS!
TIRED OF HIDING
WHO I AM!
I AM
ME!

"So
Dear insecurity
When you gonna take your hands off me?
When you ever gonna let me be
Proud of who I am?
Oh insecurity it's time I make you take your hands off me.
Set me free!
I'm gonna let you see
I'm proud of who I am.
Just the way I am.
I'm proud of who I am..." I finish and see the room full of not a lot of people standing up and applauding. I guess I won. From the core of my eye I see Alyssa storm off, clearly to find Chad. 'Wow can't wait for more drama!'