"Mama pwede five minutes pa?"
Nagbabakasakali pa 'rin akong darating ka kahit dalawang oras na kaming naghihintay dito sa sasakyan, handa nang tumungo ng Amerika.
"'Nak, kanina pa. Dapat nung naghapunan 'yun dito kahapon nagpaalam ka na."
"Eh kasi 'di niyo ko naiintindihan. Ang hirap kaya sabihin 'ma. Imagine, sasabihin ko sa kaniya na aalis tayo 'tas paano pag 'di na ako pansinin? Di na kami friends? Ayaw ko din siya mabigla," maluha-luha ko nang sabi.
Sobrang takot ako. Takot ako na wala na kaming magpo-protekta sa kaniya. Takot ako na magtampo siya. Takot ako sa pwedeng gawin sa kaniya ng Tatay niya.
"Anak, naiintindihan kita. Pero isipin mo din na this is what your papa and I have been dreaming for you; to migrate," sabi ni Mama na nagpadagdag pa sa bigat ng nararamdaman ko.
Napag-usapan na namin 'to dati, halos nga lagi, pero ang hirap pa 'rin pala talaga tanggapin kapag nangyayari na.
Bakit kasi hindi pa siya dumadating? 'Di ko mapigilang mag isip ng masasamang bagay.
Paano kung sinaktan na naman siya?
Kinulong sa kuwarto?
Dapat kasi pinakulong ko na lang kina mama yung gagong tatay niya. Pasalamat siya, naaawa pa rin yung anak niya sa kaniya kahit ginaganun na niya. Malaki ang puso ni Joben, kaso sobrang buti niyang tao ay nakakalimutan na niya ang sarili.
"Papa, punta—"
"Alyx, enough. We have to leave now, our flight's in four hours," wala na akong nagawa dahil pinaandar na ni Papa ang sasakyan at 'yun na ang huling pagtanaw ko sa punong inaakyat namin sa harap ng bahay.
Lugar kung saan kami madalas magpalitan ng sikreto habang kumakain ng bunga. 'Yun na din ang huling silip ko sa kinalakihan kong bahay kasama sina mama at papa. Paalam Las Nieves, at sa mga alaalang nakaukit dito.
"Ms. Layson! I said could you define lithification?" I jumped off my own seat when I caught my instructor and classmates darting their sharp looks on me.
I was dronwed with my own thoughts of Joben again, my childhood friend. After all the events that happened in the past few days, thinking of him was the only safe corner on my mind.
"I-It is... I don't know," the whole class bursted into laughter. I look down.
Mrs. Roberts shook her head due to disappointment and brought her attention back to the whiteboard. I feel like I'm gonna pass out. I began to catch for my breath when I felt my tears building up. I knew it, I couldn't function well today for the wound is still fresh.
"You high?" A classmate asked whom I chose not to notice. I felt helpless.
I asked for a bathroom pass and headed out before my tears fell. I thought I've cried the hardest last night, but it still feels like my tears were never enough. It feels like my tears will never get tired of falling.
Mama and papa had a car accident two days ago, they were driving to New York to celebrate their 18th wedding anniversary. They tried to persuade me to come with them, but I felt like something is stopping me. Fuck it, I wish I left with them if I just knew that this would be the future.
Based on the police reports, nawalan ng preno ang sasakyan nila. I was home alone when I heard the news. My mind went blank, my body stiffened and I couldn't say a word. My mama died just last night due to severe head trauma, while papa is in comatose. I haven't been myself ever since.
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Novela JuvenilAlyx lived under the beams of sunshine her entire life. She has a guy best friend named Joben, whom she has hidden feelings with. They spent afternoons, shared secrets, played basketball and almost did everything together. She consoles him every tim...
