Love, Laura (Ayden Lee fanfic)

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8.2.2020, Maihua

As much as I felt bad and thought I may have overreacted I was determined to not let it get to me. She decided that I wasn't her best friend anymore and I decided that I didn't want to be her friend at all. I wasn't going to let another one play me like this. Besides this I've done a good job at convincing myself that she was gonna break my heart or something like that. I guess in a way she did.

Gaonha didn't even know. She didn't notice us not acknowledging eachother or that we hadn't facetimed in a while. Her new boyfriend was way more interesting than that. I guess I understand that though.

I sighed as I looked through the fridge for the billionth time today before scolding myself once again and telling myself I'm just bored, not hungry. I closed the fridge and looked around to see if there's anything interesting to do. I've tried gaming but that was boring without someone on a call with me. I also sat on my phone for about an hour but that gets pretty boring pretty soon.

I heard Gaonha laugh from upstairs. She was probably on a call with...Eric? I think? I don't really remember his name but it was something similar to that.

After finding nothing that I wanted to eat I made my way back upstairs, to my room. On the way there I found Gaonha wasn't actually on facetime anymore, but I assumed she had something to do anyway so I just left her alone.

My phone vibrated with a message but I just couldn't be bothered to check it. I'd open my notifications sooner or later anyway. I sighed as I closed my rooms door leaning against it.

"You fucked up Maihua" I whispered to myself. I mean was I wrong? I lost the one best friend I've actually trusted since... yeah let's not name her. I missed her so damn much.

I looked at the phone in my hand. I've been doing a good job at preventing myself from unblocking her. I wanted to but I knew I shouldn't.

Did I overreact? Was blocking her out of my life necessary? She only removed me from her close friends, nothing else.

I sighed and moved my fingers to the bridge of my node rubbing it slowly. A headache started expanding all over my forehead. I wanted to scream. Yell out everything that was bothering me.

"I fucking hate myself!" I said each word louder and louder.