Please Try (COMPLETED)

Chapter 19

Nakatingin pa rin ako sa pintuan na nilabasan ni Casper. I don't know why but bigla akong na-konsensya, I can also feel sadness, and pain.

Was it so wrong for me to choose not to remember the man in my dreams? Was it so wrong for me to choose not to meet him? Was it so wrong for me not to even care about him?

I know that he's someone special, and someone important. I can see that in my dreams, I can even feel that. But... The thing is, Okay na ako Kay Casper.

I'm happy being with Casper. I'm okay with Casper. I'm fine with Casper.

I don't need another man to enter in my life, mas gusto Kong si Casper Lang Ang umu-okopa nang puso't isip ko. Kahit Naman Hindi ko pa kilala Yung lalakeng nasa panaginip ko, sigurado Naman ako na Hindi siya Basta kaibigan. I know he is someone beyond a friend...

And it scares me.

It scares me because I don't want to hurt Casper. It scares me because I don't want to have doubts about my feelings towards Casper. It scares me because I might lose Casper. At ayokong mangyari yun.

Casper's making me happy. Casper make me feel that I'm love. Siya Lang Ang nakakagawa nun sakin, at Wala akong planong tanggalan siya Ng karapatan para gawin Yun sakin.

"Hey.." napatingin Naman ako Kay Alex. I looked at him.

I think I know him. Bigla akong nakaramdam ng kakaiba. I'm feeling like I miss him so much.

"You sure don't want to meet the guy in your dreams?" He asked.

Nandito pa Rin kami sa kwarto. We are still here, except Casper. No one dares to go after him. He is mad. I can feel that.

I sighed heavily. "Should I? Or should I not?" I asked him. He smiled at me.

"It's up to you. Kung Anu Yung sa tingin mo ang Tama." He said. He tap my shoulder.

Hindi ko Alam pero biglang akong may nakitang imahe. Napapikit ako nang biglang sumakit Ang ulo ko. I'm trying to see the images clearly...

"Ah!" I shouted when my head hurts again, napapikit na Lang ako nang mga Mata ko dahil sa sakit nang nararamdaman ko.

I see images.. me talking to Alex.

We were laughing.. we were hugging..

Pero Hindi siya Yung lalakeng nasa panaginip ko. Agad akong napamulat nang mga mata.

"Are you okay?" Lauren asked.

Agad Kong tinignan si Alex, na nag-alala na ngayon sakin.

"I-I just saw you..." I said. Mas lalo itong nagulat.

"What did you just say?" He asked.

"I saw myself being with you. I don't know where.. but I just saw you." I said.

Fuck.

What's happening to me?

Anu ba tong nangyayari sakin? Anu ba tong nakikita ko? Kung alaala Ang mga Ito, bakit Hindi ko Ito matandaan?

"Really?" Alex said and I saw a smile formed in his lips. Tumango na lamang ako.

"Pero Hindi ko matandaan.." I said.

Anu ba talaga Ang nangyayari? Hindi ko maintindihan ang nangyayari sakin.

"W-What's happening?" Sabi ko.

Naramdaman ko Ang namumuong luha saking mga Mata. I'm confused. I don't know what's happening. I don't know these people. I don't know them, but it feels like I know them. I don't know! Hindi ko na Alam Ang nangyayari! Wala akong Alam.

Tapos...

Casper's mad. He is mad! Why is he mad?

I don't know what to do. One moment I was so damn happy being with Casper. Tapos malalaman ko na merong mga taong dapat kilala ko, pero Hindi ko kilala.

I just don't know..

Wala akong Alam sa nangyayari.

"Khace.." Zanna said. Akmang lalapit siya sakin pero tumayo ako sa Kama.

"Don't.." I said. Halatang nagulat siya sa ginawa ko. "I.. I just want to go home." I said before getting my things and leave that room.

I'm so confused. Hindi ko alam Ang nangyayari. Wala akong Alam sa mga sinasabi nila. Wala akong Alam...

I bit my lower lip as I try so hard not to cry. I am walking in the hallway reaching towards the elevator.

This is so frustrating.

I feel like I know them. I feel like I miss them so much. But what can I do? When I don't even know them at all. What can I do when I don't even remember them?

What's really happening to me?

Napatigil ako sa paglalakad nang Makita ko si Casper. He was just staring at me. Akala ko umalis na Ito. Hindi ko na napigilan ang mga luha ko, they immediately fell down in my eyes. Nakita ko Naman na nagulat si Casper, agad itong lumapit sakin.

"What happened?" He asked. I just hugged him. I hugged so tight. Naramdaman ko din ang pag yakap Niya pabalik sakin. "Shh.. don't cry." He said. Ramdam ko din Ang mga kamay Niya sa aking likod, pilit na pinapatahan ako. "Fuck, what's wrong?" Nag aalalang tanong Niya. Humiwalay siya sa yakapan namin. He cupped my face using his hands and steady it in front of him. "Tell me baby, what's wrong?" He asked.

"I-I want to get out of here.. please. Let's get out of here." I said still crying. Tumango Naman Ito.

"We're getting out of here." He said bago ako hinila papasok nang elevator.

Ayokong manatili dito. It feels so frustrating. I'm confused, and I don't know what's happening. I don't know who I am, I don't know the people around me, and that makes me feel so frustrated.

Para bang meron sa pagkatao ko na Hindi ko Alam. Parang merong bahagi sa pagkatao ko na biglang nawala.

I know that there's something wrong. I know that very well, but I just keep on ignoring it. Mas pinili kong mabuhay at maging masaya.

But this? Biglang nangyari Ang mga Ito. Biglang dumating sila sa buhay ko.  At Hindi ko na bigla kilala Ang sarili ko.

Tinignan ko Ang mga kamay namin ni Casper na mag kahawak. Casper is the only person that I want to be with right now. Casper is the only person that I can trust...