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How long will you be like this? Such a crybaby, you could hear your relatives cruel words being whispered into your ear. Please don't cry you're gonna ruin family dinner. Ruin is that all you did? Do you destroy your family's feelings? Their enjoyment?
Why don't you bring your friends over? Why're you so lonely? You look at yourself in the mirror your hands shaking as you spot a razor by the sink you pick it up.
Hey it'll be okay...Will it?! Nothing is okay right now! You roll up your sleeves. You see your past scars as if they're past mistakes but yet you see yourself as one of those mistakes.
Y/n you're nearly 15 when are you going to grow the fuck up?! You start to make cuts on your arms as you cry. Are you proud of how I've grown? You giggle as you sob the thought was something you thought you'd never say. You put down the razor breathing heavily as you sobbed. You rolled down your sleeves and walked to your bed looking at the ceiling as you flopped down. I hope you're happy...you fell asleep.
The next morning you prepared for class your friends waiting for you by the door.
"How'd you sleep, Y/n?" Blake asked and you yawned shrugging.
"Meh..." You say a little slouched.
"Stay up late?" Yang asked and you nodded.
"I have no idea what time I went to bed but I think it was past 3am," You say.
"Hey at least you're not Weiss or ruby," Yang says, "Weiss stays up all night studying and ruby works on crescent rise all night when she gets the chance,"
Hopefully you two aren't like me...but in all honesty how can you be useless? You all are so magnificent.
"Hey at least we aren't Blake, she pulled an all-nighter for a week," Ruby says.
"Blake's different Rubes, also I helped her get a full nights rest so bleh," Yang stuck her tongue out at her and ruby pouted. Cute...
"Yang's right Ruby you've never experienced cat stress before, some say it's...a cat-astrophe," Ruby, Weiss and Blake groan while Yang snorts. You give the other three an apologetic look. They smile at you and you walk into class as you sit down you still can feel the pain in your arms from the scars you cut on your arms.
Timeskip
"Uggghh fuck algebra!" Ruby shouted out in frustration.
You guys were in the library doing homework.
"Did you just curse?!" Yang yelled and ruby looked up with wide eyes.
"Oh crap I forgot you were you in front of me!" Ruby yelled, "I'm sorry!"
As ruby and Yang yelled at each other Blake tapped your shoulder, "Y/n are you okay?" You nod, "Are you sure? You've been quiet all evening,"
"I'm fine Blake," Do you really mean that?
"Are you sure?" Blake asks, "There's something about your eyes that look...not alive today,"
"I don't have to be happy all the time Blake." You snapped. The arguing stopped between Ruby and Yang, Weiss looked at you shocked not expecting you to snap at Blake.
"I never said you did, Y/n," Blake asks.
You sigh in frustration, "Whatever," You mutter, Blake stays quiet. Look what you did...you upset her. Maybe you can't control your manors. Who knows how many times you'll snap at them? Who knows when they're going to leave you for not being able to control your emotions.
You look down at a book trying to focus on it.
Weiss puts her hand on top of yours, "Y/n, you don't need to be happy for anyone will take you as you are we really do care about you Y/n-"
You move your hand away, "Just leave it alone Weiss!" You snap once more.
"Whats up with your behavior?" Yang asked, "Why're you acting like this?"
You gasp shutting the book loudly making team JNPR from the other table look at you guys.
"...I..I.." You get up quickly and walk off down the halls and to your room.
You run to your room slamming the door behind you, you almost cradle yourself on the bed whispering, "I didn't mean it," to yourself as tears fall down your face.
The next day you woke up dry tears on your face and your cheeks puffy, you went to class and pretended everything was ok, like you didn't have a breakdown yesterday like nothing happened. You ignored your friends and texts from your family, in fact you ignored everyone and everything. Which is probably a bad choice because you bumped into Pyrrha on your way to your next class.
"Y/n...are you okay you've been ignoring all of us," Pyrrha asked.
"Fine," You say trying to get past her but she moves to block you.
"I don't mean to be rude but you obviously aren't, you can talk to us we're right in your corner whenever you need us,"
"That's supposed to make me feel what? Happy? Yeah I don't think so," You say trying to walk around her.
"Y/n," Someone grabbed your shoulder you looked behind you.
"Weiss..." You say and she smiles nodding at you.
"Let's go talk," She says gripping onto your hand.
"But what about-"
"Class can wait your mental and physical state are more important," She says.
"I don't wanna talk," You say she looks back at you with an icy stare.
"Too bad," She says and pulls you away from Pyrrha.
You two well five because the rest of team RWBY are here too sat in the library. They all sit quietly making the air seem tenacious and awkward.
"What is so important?" You say looking up at them.
"Yesterday...when I grabbed your hand your sleeve rolled down a little..." Weiss said your eyes widen but you try to play it off.
"So?" You question.
"What do you mean so?! Why are you inflicting pain upon yourself!" Blake yelled at you obviously not meaning to because her bow is flat against her head.
"..." You can't answer...because you deserve it...you've punished your friends so much in so many ways, as well as existing.
"Y/n...is that what you think?" Ruby asked, you said that out loud ...shit, "You think you're punishing us?"
You sigh, what can you even say in this situation?
"Short stack why would we think that?" Yang said.
"Because that's all I've ever done...to my family, my friends, everyone I've ever known," You say, "I'm such a hazard to everyone's health...they don't need me...you don't need me,"
"..." They all went quiet.
"See even now I'm bothering you with my own problems!" You stand up, "I should go..." and never bother you ever again.
Ruby quickly uses her semblance to stand in front of you blocking your way.
"Ruby-" She hugs you making you sigh, "Ruby thank you but I don't need a hug-" Yang hugged you from behind.
"Yang-" You faced her and she kissed you. Your eyes widen in surprise but you melt into the kiss. She pulls away first.
"We care about you, so much," Yang says. Weiss stands up as well as Blake, but they don't hug you right away. It seems they brought a first aid kit and decided they would wrap your arms.
"Do you have any on your thighs?" Weiss asked and you shook your head no.
"We love you Y/n," Ruby says, "And when you feel like hurting yourself we're here for you, we will take you no matter how broken you feel," She gives you a big smile.
"Thank you, but this doesn't make me feel any better," You say.
"Healing comes slow but we're here and ready to help you heal," Blake says.
You nod, "That doesn't make me feel better either," You say.
"I know but feeling like you deserve these words will come slowly," Blake nods.
"Okay..." You say, "I think I'm ready to heal," You smile.
"Good, because we'll be here every step of the way," Weiss says, "Even when you don't want it,"
You nod.
"Yang, Ruby you can let go of me now,"
"Oh...right."
Hey everyone thank you for reading, I've been a sad sack of potatoes lately dunno why just been really sad, but anyway I need a therapist. :)
