The City Comes Alive When We're Together (An Alex Gaskarth love story)

Chapter 9

Gwendolyn

I sat on the couch as Jack paced back and forth in front of me obviously stressed out about this. "Alright, Gwen, let me explain this in the easiest way I know how." He started. He took a couple of deep breaths and sat down on the couch, but his nervousness didn't cease there.

"Look Jack, I just want an explanation, I'm not saying that I'm gonna end up taking Alex back, because I won't, I just need an explanation about the whole situation. Fair enough?" He looked sad, I wasn't the greatest with making people happy so I just sat there.

"I feel so bad for Alex." He stated glumly. They're best friends, of course he's gonna feel bad for him. Best friends take best friends sides. I wasn't expecting him to be like "oh what he did was wrong." I knew in my heart that he was here to defend Alex, but I just simply needed an explanation.

"Sadie is a complete psycho." He whispered. That made no sense whatsoever. If she was so psycho then why would Alex confess his love for her, say all these nice things about her, DEDICATE A SONG TO HER!

"That makes no sense I know." He said and hung his head. "She's using him, this is the second girl that's used him for his fame and money." He said and wrapped his hands together.

That made sense, and it was easy to believe, but this was the third explanation that he was giving and none of the story made sense. He was going from one tangent to the other and I had nothing to connect anything to.

"You're not very good at explaining things are you?" He shook his head and scratched his face.

"Not at all. I can't even explain something so simple to you and I'm sorry. The bottom line is, I know Alex wants to be with you. That day he came home he spent in his bed thinking about you." I was surprised at what came out of his mouth. He has a girlfriend and he spent all day, thinking about...me? It made me feel all fuzzy inside and I couldn't help but smile.

"Me?" I asked in disbelief. It was so unbelievable. "You." He confirmed.

"How long has he been with Sadie?" I asked. It had to have been awhile, long before he met me that's for sure.

"They've been on and off for the past two years. From what I know, he can't get rid of her. She uses him, sleeps with him, asks for money and doesn't come back until a week later when she needs more money." That's just disgusting. It's literally prostitution.

"Jack that's literally prostitution." I said. He nodded and looked at me with a knowing face. "I know." He whispered. The pity feeling that I had originally lost earlier made its way back into me. I couldn't help but feel pity for him.

"I can't be with him Jack." I said. I had come to my decision. His head whipped around and he looked at me wide eyed. "What! Why!" He asked. He seemed really panicky and I started to feel terrible about my decision but I just couldn't do it.

"I'm moving, I'm going on in my life I got a job managing my fathers corporation, I just can't, I'm going on and I don't need the drama to follow me." I explained. He looked down and didn't look back up at me. He looked defeated, and I started to feel really bad.

"What's wrong Jack?" I know it was a stupid question to ask, but I just had find a way to make him feel better.

"I failed as a best friend, I can't even help him get a girl that he's in love with." He said and looked up at me. He looked truly defeated, this must've been the most important thing to him, yet he feels like he couldn't even complete something that seemed so simple.

"You didn't fail as a best friend Jack," I started and rubbed his back "just because you couldn't help him get a girl doesn't mean you failed, you're still his best friend whether you can or can't get him a girl. Don't be so down on yourself." I soothed and hugged him. Whether he approved or not I think that he needed that reassurance.

"Alex is gonna be so bummed when I tell him this." He said and slouched on the couch. It was close to midnight and he didn't look the least bit tired, even after playing an hour and a half long show.

"Why do you say that?" I was truly curious. For the most part it was because I didn't understand, Alex has a girlfriend that he loves, he doesn't need me, never did. He has Sadie now.

"Promise me that when I tell you this, you won't tell anyone else." I was kind of nervous to know now, but I crossed my heart and stayed silent.

"Alex doesn't love Sadie." He whispered. "He loves you. Like a lot."

This couldn't be right, he loves Sadie, I'm just some girl he saved. I'm nothing special, and he doesn't even truly know me. Not like he should if he's in love with me.

I didn't want to say anymore on the subject so I just stayed quiet.

"I have a flight to catch tomorrow, so I have to pack some last minute stuff and sleep, um you can stay if you want to? But I'm going to bed." I explained. I have to get out this conversation and saying I'm going to bed would be best, but I most likely won't be sleeping. After news like this who would sleep.

"Um yeah I understand but I have a plane to catch too and I should be getting back to the hotel." He said while standing up. I felt bad for just leaving him like this, without an answer to what he said about Alex, I mean he was only trying to be a good friend. I walked up to him and wrapped my arms around him because it was the least I could do. He told me something that's important and helped me organize at least some of my thoughts.

"Thanks Jack." I whispered and let go. Without another word he walked out and I walked away to my room.

As I laid in bed at night, without my permission my thoughts travelled to Alex. I couldn't believe he loved me. Not when he was seeing someone. Sadie could be crazy, she could be money hungry, she could be a fame seeker, she could be a mean bitch for all I care, if Alex really chose her over me I couldn't complain because he loves her.

One thing I've learned is that you can't love two people at the same time. If you're willing to cheat or anything like that then you never really loved the first person anyway. I had no idea if he was with Sadie at the time we shared that kiss, but could it mean that he loves me and not Sadie? I had no idea.

I guess I would be happy about Alex loving me if he didn't have a girlfriend to begin with.

I turned on my side and looked at bare wall in front of me, and that night like every other night these past two weeks I fell asleep thinking of Alex.