lost and Found |Taekook|

17. love? un-love?

This chapter is for lucylewis2000 . idk why but it's kinda hard for me to write from tae's pov. Hope i did justice.

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Taehyung is sitting on the floor around the coffee table in Jimin and Hoseok's apartment. Snacks are littered on the coffee table along with some soda cans. Jimin is sitting with his back supported by the couch behind him and Hoseok is lying between his legs, his back on Jimin's chest. Yeontan is playing around them, waddling on Hoseok's stomach to Taehyung's lap.

"You still haven't told me about the night you spent at Jungkook's," Jimin says, eyes narrow, pointing at Taehyung.

Taehyung mentally hits Jimin in the head, "It's been what? Two weeks? Just drop it already." Taehyung looks at Hoseok with pleading eyes for some help but the elder just shrugs and plays with Yeontan.

"You had hickeys when you came back."

"So?" Taehyung has already told Jimin multiple times that nothing happened between Jungkook and him but Jimin refuses to believe every time.

"So?" Jimin wiggles his eyebrows at him, playing with Hoseok's hair.

"Nothing happened," Taehyung groans, rolling his eyes at Jimin.

Jimin smirks, "Heard that before."

"It's all your fault, you left me to suck Hobi's dick." Jimin blushes at that and Taehyung hopes that he'll drop the topic now.

Few years ago it happened like this,

Taehyung's friend, Choi Minho sent him a series of pictures of Jungkook kissing someone else. Taehyung had dropped his phone seeing his boyfriend with someone else. To say that Taehyung was angry would be an understatement, he was seeing red. He was furious and at that time throwing Jungkook out of his life was the only predicament he had left.

Jungkook's affair hit him like a punch to the gut. Too many emotions that felt like a hailstorm of pain. Anger, betrayal, loss, panic, everything was crawling between the layers of his skin. So he did, he packed Jungkook's suitcase and pushed him out of the apartment. Out of his life.

After a few months when the surface of anger withered, he went to talk to Jungkook only to find that he had left for America. Taehyung had cried a lot that day, endless tears that choked his lungs and crawled on his skin. Taehyung was a mess and loving Jungkook was the reason behind it.

Taehyung lost the definition of love that day. Till this day he hates Jungkook for what he did to Taehyung, but he also loves him. Some would say that Taehyung is not making any sense, but love and hate can be the flowers of the same bouquet, there's no universal rule that says otherwise.

Loving Jungkook was easy, as easy as the flow of water and the rising of sun. But falling out of love? That's not something that Taehyung could ever do.

"Bro what are you thinking so hard about," Hoseok says, throwing chips at Taehyung to get his attention.

Taehyung snaps out of his thoughts, shaking his head, "S' nothing."

"It's about Jungkook, isn't it?" It's Jimin who asks that, looking closely at the younger.

"What!? No, it's not him," Taehyung says, looking down at Yeontan, who's sleeping in his lap.

"You look like you're about to cry."

"Leave it Jimin," Taehyung snaps, and then instantly regrets it because whatever Jimin says or does is always for Taehyung's own good, "M' sorry, yes it's about Jungkook."

"Why can't you move on Tae? Jungkook has clearly moved on from you."

Oh, Taehyung knows why can't he move on. One of his boyfriends during these four years, Choi Minho, had himself told Taehyung this before their break up.

You see, Taehyung tried to move on, he did go on a lot of dates and made accounts on dating websites. But it never worked out. Minho was the one who stayed longest. After Jungkook went out of Taehyung's life, Minho was the one who stayed because he had sympathy for his friend.

So, when Minho asked Taehyung to become his boyfriend, he said yes. However, their relationship did not work out for long, only after 6 months of dating they were taking a decision to split up.

"If you keep on looking for Jungkook in every boy you meet, then you'll never find someone."

Minho's last words stayed with Taehyung just like his love-

"Bro you're zoning out again." Jimin nudges his upper arm.

"Jungkook hasn't moved on either," Taehyung says in a small voice, looking away from Jimin.

"Oh? And how do you know that?"

Taehyung keeps his eyes downcast and fists his hands to stop them from trembling, "There's no decor in his condo."

"What even Tae?" Jimin sighs, rubbing at his shoulder, "You're not making any sense."

"Listen to me will you," Taehyung snaps, immediately looking at Jimin and then at Hoseok, "his condo looks like an asylum from inside and I know Jungkook and his obsession with home decor."

"Remember how beautiful our crappy apartment looked just because he decorated it back in college?"

"I'm still not following," Hoseok says, Jimin gestures to him to keep quiet.

Taehyung continues, "All I'm saying is that Jungkook loves decorations and his apartment has nothing except white walls and pictures of me and him."

"It's a bit creepy to be honest," Jimin says.

"It's cute," Hoseok says, cutting Jimin's words. Jimin glares at him.

"I don't know, it's not a lot, just a few polaroids on one wall and a few frames beside his bed of me and him, his family and all seven of us."

"He really is back into our lives," Hoseok says with dreamy eyes, looking at Taehyung giving him a small smile. The younger hums and nods his head.

All three of them sit like that for a while, playing with Yeontan, munching on snacks and watching TV. Jimin's phone buzzes with the message tone and he checks the message.

"Jin hyung was going to visit today and he's bringing Jungkook with him. Is it okay with you Tae?" He asks him, concern laced in his voice.

"Yup, it's okay."

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My uni just announced exams which sucks because i like writing this book but i also have to study. I'll try to update as much as possible but pls understand if i slack. Ty💕