lost and Found |Taekook|

21. Cheater

Setting the fireplace with Namjoon was a task, especially when the elder kept on messing up but Jungkook was determined to get done with so he could go and hang out with Taehyung again.

When they're finally done, he walks back to the living room, a skip in his steps, stomach flipping. Being around Taehyung always makes him feel lightheaded and giddy, more so when Taehyung is being affectionate and touchy.

As soon as Jungkook steps into the living room he hears Taehyung. "He is a cheating twink, that's what he is."

Jungkook halts in his steps when he hears that. Taehyung is talking to Jimin, his back facing towards Jungkook. He is no more cuddling in the blanket rather he is standing stoic.

A gasp leaves Jungkook's lips when he hears that, it doesn't take long to figure out that Taehyung is talking about him. Jimin sees Jungkook and gestures to Taehyung. When Taehyung turns around his eyes turn ice cold upon seeing Jungkook, face relentless of emotions.

Jungkook walks more into the room, "W-What are--"

Taehyung charges forward, speaking over him, "Why did you come back, huh? Why the fuck are you back?" He walks a few more steps towards Jungkook, until they're only a foot away from each other.

"I told you I missed y-"

"Oh! Don't fucking start with that drama again, you didn't miss me! You don't give a fuck about me!"

Jungkook is shocked, what is happening? Why is Taehyung suddenly behaving like this? Wasn't everything going back to normal?

"T-That's not true," Jungkook mumbles, he doesn't like being yelled at, and Taehyung is very much screaming in his face.

"It's true! And I'll tell you what is more true," Taehyung smirks, evil, as if ready to bite Jungkook, "the truth is, Jungkook, that you're a cheater, a cheating twink, a slut, that's what you are."

Taehyung's words sting, Jungkook cowers a little when he looks at Taehyung, for some reason the elder is really angry, "Why are you calling me-" Jungkook tries to speak, voice small.

He can't bear to look at Taehyung, especially when he is looking at Jungkook with disgust and revulsion. Taehyung is so distant and closed off that it pains Jungkook.

However, Taehyung doesn't look like he is holding back, "You were a slut back in college, you were one when we were dating and you are a slut now," he says, pushing Jungkook in the shoulders when he tries to come forward.

"Taehyung!?" Someone snaps from behind Jungkook. It's Jin. Yoongi, Hoseok and Namjoon also come behind him in the room all of their eyes fixated on Taehyung and Jungkook.

Taehyung looks at Jin and then scoffs, "What hyung? You don't get to say anything in this! You can forgive him, I cannot."

Jungkook looks down, trying to hold it in, trying to stay calm and not let Taehyung's words affect him. "I cannot forgive someone who hurt me, someone who broke me," Taehyung says, pulling at his hair. Jungkook knows about the damage he caused to Taehyung, so he let's Taehyung vent it out. What more can he anyway do?

"I couldn't sleep for months, couldn't see myself in the mirror for days, I always thought it was my fault. He-he made me go through all this," Taehyung jabs his finger in Jungkook's chest, spitting venom, his eyes red and scornful.

"Only because he couldn't keep his dick in his pants, couldn't help being yourself? Huh? Jungkook? Am I right?" He shouts in Jungkook's face.

Jungkook looks down, hands curling, nails digging into his palm. Taehyung's words are hurting. He doesn't want to cry, doesn't want to look more pathetic than he already feels, at least not in front of Taehyung and his hyungs. He fails, tears brimming his eyes, he tries to blink them away. Don't cry, don't cry.

"No--" Jungkook mumbles, voice choked, he hates himself, he hates himself for what he did to Taehyung.

"Taehyung, that's enough, stop it now," Jimin says, voice calm but stern. He pulls at Taehyung's wrist but he shrugs him off, focusing on Jungkook again.

Taehyung looks like he is trapped in a stance, possessed, he wants to hurt, "Oh, I wish! I wish I'd have stopped before. I wish I'd have never fallen in love with you."

That really hurt. Taehyung regrets loving Jungkook? He feels his heart drop, hears the crack, hears the break. This is the bottom line, the nadir, this is where Jungkook gives up.

Jungkook looks up at Taehyung, tears rolling down his face, lost, all hopes vanishing, "Please Taehyung s-stop." He rubs at his chest, feeling the muscle throb. His head hurts, legs giving up.

Taehyung doesn't pay any attention to his predicament, he looks right into Jungkook's eyes, taking a step closer, breathing heavily. Jungkook already knows that whatever comes next out of Taehyung's mouth is going to cut and bleed.

"I hope you hurt as much as I do, I hope you never find someone worthy of love and I fucking hope you're always lonely." Taehyung says, calm and slow so that every syllable gets tattooed on Jungkook's nerves.

And Jungkook? Jungkook breaks, shattering, falling into a spiral. He cannot hold it in, a choked sob escapes his lips and he quickly tries to cover it. He looks at Taehyung for false comfort but the elder turns away. He can't even bear to look at his hyungs. Jungkook hates crying, hates to look weak, feel weak, hates himself, hates love, hates-

He walks away, quickly running into his room, slamming the door behind him.

Taehyung looks at Jungkook leaving the room and then flops on the couch behind him, slumping. He drops his head into his trembling, shaking hands and takes a long breath, calming himself down.

There's pin drop silence in the room everyone looking at Jungkook's slammed door and then at Taehyung.

Yoongi is the one who speaks first, "What the hell Taehyung!?" He snaps, coming forward, standing in front of Taehyung.

Taehyung sighs, "Not you too, Yoongi hyung," he says, his own eyes are wet and tired.

"No! You listen to me, calling him a cheater is one thing, but slut? Being mean? Saying that he doesn't deserve to be loved? That's borderline wrong and hurtful." Yoongi says, voice stern and directive. He is right, in a way, Taehyung did aim to hit below the belt.

"Was I wrong though?" Taehyung scoffs, rudely, "I don't think so."

"It wasn't right either! You're doing nothing but hurting yourself, look what you've become." Yoongi gestures at Taehyung's state, "You wanted to hurt him? You did! Bingo! But are you happy?"

Taehyung in fact does not feel happy, not even a bit, there's no weight that withered off from his chest. He tries to shake the feeling off, but fails.

"It's been years Taehyung, you can't keep on punishing him. You have to let him go," Namjoon says, having to speak after a while. He sits beside Taehyung to rub at his shoulders, easing the muscles.

Taehyung feels bad now, he doesn't know what fazed him, but in that moment, he was only thinking about harming Jungkook.

Jin sits on the other side of Taehyung, holding his trembling hands, "Taehyung look, we care about you and of course it was Jungkook's mistake but being mean and wanting to hurt him is not going to solve anything." He says. Taehyung blinks his eyes until tears start to slip down, this is so overwhelming for him.

"Did you ever ask him, why he did what he did? Did it never occur to you that your Jungkook could do something like that?"

Taehyung never thought about it like that, probably because it never mattered to him, "What's there to ask in it?"

Jimin crouches down in front of him to hold his other hand, "Maybe there's not, but you should talk to him. forgive him or let him go, Taehyung. This the only way you can stop hurting and I'm saying this for you, not him." Jimin says, squeezing their intertwined hands.

Jin rubs Taehyung's tears away, wiping them with his thumbs, Taehyung nods, "O-okay."

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