Beastars x reader (Season 1)

CHAPTER 14: AUDITIONS

(There's a song on the cover page you'll need to hear later)

Ok Y/N, focus. I must focus. I'm behind the stage curtain. I've written down my name to get in the auditions. In a few moments, I'll have to stand on stage and show what I'm capable of doing. Some people are auditioning before me. They haven't called me to play yet. I'm along with a couple of people waiting.

Some people had played the piano, flute, and other instruments but not the violin. I'm the only violinist on stage. I bend down to peek under the curtain. I can see the heron's feet that went before me backlighting the stage.

At the moment, I can't find Legoshi or Juno, who are supposed to be in the audience. But for now, I've got to focus on passing auditions and getting into the drama club.

I'm so nervous, I'll have to play really good. Since I have a bad reputation at school and if they don't accept me. I won't be able to participate in any event.

I wait impatiently. I walk from one side to the other, shaking my violin from one place to another due to nerves. I stop to see a poster on the wall that shows the play I'm auditioning for. "Adler" I've heard of that show before, it's a classic and has a good story, although in terms of love ... meh. It is unrealistic.

The heron finishes playing the flute. I hear clapping from the public and criticism from the judges. Later the heron comes down from the stage and retreats. I hear one of the judges speak.

S: All right, the next person to audition is...

I listen to the judge moving some sheets, he must be looking for the next person on the list. He then stays silent for a few seconds.

S: ....... Um .... C-could Y/N the uh .. wolf .. go on stage?

Damn, it's my turn. I hear some whispers from people. Most of them are asking what a crazy killer is doing here. I hold my violin tight.
C-Come on ... I have to do this, I must prove to them that I'm not what they think. I take a deep breath and walk to the stage.

On the way to the microphone, the spotlight begins to light me up. The public is silent now, fearing that I would listen to them now that I'm closer ...

I see the judges, a pelican, a tiger, and a baboon. The three of them are looking at me.

S: What are you going to play Y/N?

Y/N: Uh .. the violin?

I raise my violin for them to see. I've been holding my violin all this time, it seems very obvious to me. The tiger starts laughing.

B: We're talking about the song .. What SONG are you gonna play?

Y/N: Oh! Yea... Right..

OMG I'M SO STUPID. I didn't even think of a song. What do I do? WHAT DO I DO? Oh! I know, I know.

Y/N: I-I'm going to ... well I'm gonna improvise h-heh.

I laugh nervously.

K: Very well then, show us what you've got.

I nod and hold my violin, I look around. I see everyone looking at me. I'm so nervous. I can see Juno, she waves at me and I wave back quickly and subtly.

I find no sign of Legoshi, but for now, I must play. I move my fingers to the right position, take a deep breath again, and close my eyes.

(Song Y/N plays on the cover page, play it now for a better experience)

I play the first notes, trying not to think of the people judging me with their eyes. I do the usual. I remember why I'm here. I remember what motivates me to continue.

I move slowly at the rhythm of the music that I compose. My nerves never fade as I play in front of someone, so I make an effort to contain them and not make a mistake.

I try to keep my eyes closed, but I open them to see the reaction of the crowd. I want to know if I'm doing it right. I see that they're watching me, there are still some people whispering to each other, but I try to ignore them for now, paying full attention to the music. I can't help but feel nervous and start to sweat, my ear's twitching again. No, you have to calm down Y/N. I take a deep breath to the rhythm of the music and close my eyes to focus only on it.

I let myself be absorbed by the music, and think about my past. Imagining fantasies while I play always helps me to relax. So that's what I do. After a while, I can hear the orchestra resonating within me. My nerves fading away slowly at ignoring the thought of being watched.

I listen to the music that I play with my soul. Moving to the rhythm of each note, each chord, feeling each sound and losing myself in it.

I'm so focused on playing with passion that I don't realize that I'm wagging my tail, thanks to the happiness I feel when playing. I don't realize that the whispers are over. I don't realize that people is watching me smile as I play. They're seeing that I'm playing with my heart. They're seeing how important music is to me, and I don't realize it. Well.... I'm playing.

I completely forget the bad things that have happened to me in these last days. Again, I'm living in the present, focusing on here and now. I'm enjoying my moment, I forget to focus again on everything going perfect. I'm lost in my feelings that I play naturally, knowing which note comes after the other. Not that I know, I'm just improvising, I can simply feel it.

Now more than ever, I can feel all my senses to their full potential, feeling the warm light of the spotlight and the wooden floor at my feet. My ears listen to an entire orchestra that keeps me alive.

I open my eyes again, this time with more security. I look at the faces of the people, they don't seem to judge me, but it seems that they're lost in the music just like me.

I look around, seeing a spectacle of colors thanks to the fact that I'm under the spotlight. The light gives me a beautiful illumination, which seems to be taken from a movie with an amazing photograph. I can feel it all, I can see, I can hear, I can feel. I feel alive, more than ever.

I finish the last notes as I slow down the rhythm, I look at the people and find Juno among them again. I see her look. She's smiling, I'm glad to see her smile. It means I did a good job. I feel calm just in time to finish the last note of the song. And to leave the stage back in a complete silence.