Beastars x reader (Season 1)

CHAPTER 30: WHO ARE YOU REALLY?

The curtain falls.  Louis and Legoshi leave the stage and return with the group. Everyone runs to Legoshi and asks him multiple questions.

Sheila: Legoshi are you crazy?!  What were you thinking?!

Dom: Why did you do that?

Sanu: What's wrong with you guys?

Everyone's as confused as I am, piled up in front of Legoshi without being able to let him speak.  Legoshi gets nervous.  But then Louis intervenes.

Louis: Bill, Legoshi .. I have to talk to you two seriously.

Bill: Why me?! He's the one who started it!

Louis: Because you're also involved Bill!

We all fell silent at Louis's scolding.

Louis: However, you should first go to the nurse's office to review those wounds that you caused yourself.  I don't want you two to stain the stage with more blood.

The nurse's office. Why do we always end up in the nurse's office when we do a performance?

Louis: Go through the back door, so no one will see you.

That red deer is still more concerned about the reputation of the theatre than for the health of any of us. I roll my eyes in disagreement. 

Bill rushes out the back door.  While Legoshi quickly leans against a wall while trying to walk.  Looking closely, those wounds don't seem to be that deep, but they're enough to make walking hard for him.

The others show concern, but nobody wants to come and help him.  Are they afraid of him? Honestly, he scared me a few minutes ago.  I must know what happened.  Intuiting things has only made things worse for me, so even if I don't like it, I'll have to keep a closer eye on Legoshi again.

Y/N: Legoshi, let me help you.

I carefully approach him.  I hold his arm with some fear.  My instincts ask me to leave it and get as far away as possible.

He looks at me confused.  I raise his arm and wrap it around me so that he can lean on and so I can help him walk.

So far I can tell that although I'm a wolf, Legoshi's even taller than me.  Anyway, he can lean on me without problems.

Legoshi seems to understand what I'm trying to do, so he walks with me to the back exit.  Before crossing the door, I look at Louis, who's staring at me.

Y/N: I'll be back in a minute.

I walk out with Legoshi, I can see Bill walking towards the infirmary from a somewhat distant distance.

Legoshi: ... Thank you.

I turn to see Legoshi.  He's looking at me, but then he looks down in a few seconds. Again he behaves like the shy and friendly wolf.  As if ... he hadn't brutally attacked Bill.  I'm so confused.

Y/N: .. You're welcome.

I decide not to look him in the eye.  This boy is hard to understand.  For one point, he's shy, kind, it seems that he wouldn't kill a fly.  He's tender, and gets easily uncomfortable.  But at the same time, he shows terrifying behavior, he has fits of anger. 

He has been about to kill people!!  Maybe ... if Bill hadn't stopped him ... he could've killed him.

Finally we enter the nurse's office, where they're already attending Bill.  As soon as we arrived, they took Legoshi to help him.  I sit on one of the chairs in the "waiting room", trying to think of an answer, a justification, something ... in order to understand this peculiar gray wolf.

Is he good?  Is he wild?  Is he really innocent?  What if he has a mental problem or something?  Something like multiple personality and he doesn't remember what he does when he goes wild?  or ... Maybe it was just a fight?  I'm too confused.  I want answers, but I can't just go to Legoshi and ask him ... -Hey!  I have a question for you, are you a serial killer? - .. I must know, what caused this fight.  What I must do, is ask ... But how?

I wait a few minutes.  Legoshi's wounds get disinfected, his back is bandaged, he's given painkillers ... I wait outside, with a thousand questions going through my head.  He finally comes out and looks at me.  He seems surprised to see that I waited for him.  I wonder what he's thinking.

Legoshi: Well uh.. I think we should go.  Louis awaits us.

I nod.  I go out with Legoshi, who can already walk better thanks to the painkillers.  I listen to Bill in front of us, I look askance, he's staring at us.  But then he keeps walking.

Since Bill walked away a bit, I feel like I should ask ... It's now or never. I stop walking, being near a wall of a building, which Legoshi finds out that I fall behind, he stops and turns to see me.

Legoshi: Y/N?

My ear twitches, my hands sweat, and my stomach flips.  I look up at Legoshi, who's waiting for me to walk with him. I put together the courage to ask.

Y/N: Why did you attack him?