Beastars x reader (Season 1)

CHAPTER 46: WHAT I FEEL FOR YOU

I'm sitting while playing around with my violin bow and holding my scores. I rub my forearm on my forehead to wipe away my sweat.  The sun's very strong here in the park.  I'm sitting next to Kai and Legoshi while they paint. 

If the painting wasn't fresh, I'd put myself under the dinosaur sculpture to block the sun.

I read the scores, turning from page to page, just to make sure I remember the chords needed for the play.

Legoshi: Why don't you play?

Y/N: Hm?

Legoshi: The violin. Why don't you play it?

Y/N: Oh..

I close the music sheet and lower my ears.

Y/N: It's just ... There are too many people.

Kai: So?..

Y/N: W-well I... I get nervous when I play in front of many..

Kai: Uh, how?  If you've already played in Adler's play.

Y/N: Well .. yeah but, that's different.

Legoshi: How's that?

I look away, and stare at the ground.

Y/N: No one's staring at me when I play.

They don't say anything else, they look at each other and Kai goes back to painting. 

I look behind me observing how the park is looking with the festival decorations.

Legoshi: You shouldn't be embarrassed.

Y/N: Uh-what?..

My ears lift and so does my gaze to Legoshi, who is painting the dinosaur's leg sculpture.

Legoshi: You don't have to... be ashamed of playing in front of people if you do it nicely.

He stops painting to look at me askance and gives me a gentle smile.

Y/N: Y-you think?

Legoshi: Sure.

Y/N: Uh, t-thanks.

I smile from ear to ear and look back at my scores holding my violin case strap lovingly.  I feel like I'm blushing, so I open my music sheet and hide my face.  Again, those butterflies in my stomach.

Kai: We need more water.

Legoshi: A one bucket'll do? I'll get it.

Kai: Thanks.

Legoshi gets up and grabs an almost empty bucket to fill it.

Legoshi: I'll be right back.

Y/N: Sure!

He walks to a wooden shack where a faucet is placed, I watch him walk away slowly, admitting that I'd like to follow him, but ... that'd be weird.  I turn to see my scores again but I feel like someone's looking at me.  I see Kai's staring at me.

I turn to look elsewhere, to see if he's actually looking at someone else, but nope... he's staring at me.  Why?

Y/N: ... What?

He snickers and looks back at the sculpture.

Kai: Nothing.

I turn my head in confusion trying to know what was he looking at. It's until this moment I just realized something.