Melwood's Family

Chapter 47

Melissa's POV

    The twins were crying so Chris and I both got up to grab them from their swings in the living room. I was trying to make dinner with Avery to give her some one on one time with me, but the twins also needed me. I grabbed one and went back to the kitchen to finish with Avery. Phoenix was still crying so I made a bottle for her and then went back to helping Avery.

Avery: Mom I'm ready for the next step.

Melissa: Okay. Give me a second and then I will come help you.

Avery: No now.

Melissa: Please be patient Avery. I need to feed your sister.

Avery: No.

     I watched her melt to the ground and start throwing another fit. She had a melt down once a day and it was always when I had to help one of the twins or both of them. This had been going on for about a week, but I thought it was just common sibling jealousy. When she had the melt down tonight I snapped. I was exhausted and I had three crying children. 

Melissa: Avery go to your room and calm down!

     I saw her face change and I couldn't believe I just yelled at her. Chris looked at me stunned and I was stunned myself. 

Avery: I miss mommy and daddy.

     I heard her say that and then she ran off to her room. I couldn't believe I just yelled at her and I knew it was going to be hard when the twins came along and we couldn't give her all the attention, but I didn't know it was going to be this hard. I saw Chris's face staring at me he was terrified and I was mortified at what I just said. I put Phoenix in her swing and went up stairs to apologize to Avery. When I got to her door I was about to open it, but decided to knock instead. I knocked on the door and heard Avery said come in. I opened her door slightly and she was siting in her bird cage with her moms blanket. She had tears running down her face and I knew I messed up. 

Melissa: Can we talk Avery?

Avery: What do you want?

Melissa: I'm sorry for yelling at you. I know it has been hard since your sisters were born, but I'm trying. I am still trying to find everything out about being a mom. I was just a wife and the next day I was a mom to four. I know this is new to you and me and I know that it has been hard, but we are a team and we will figure it out. Can we figure it out together?

Avery: Yeah.

     I hugged her and then we went back downstairs to finish dinner. We finished and then ate dinner and watched some TV. I got a text from Avery's school saying that she didn't have school tomorrow. I didn't have to work tomorrow so I am going to spend the day with her. It was getting closer to her bedtime so I decided that I would get her ready for bed.

Melissa: Avery lets go get ready for bed.

Chris: I will come say goodnight before you fall asleep.

Melissa: Come on love bug let's go take a shower.

Avery: Goodnight everybody.

I watched her run up the stairs and I followed behind her slowly. She made the turn to her room and I watched her body disappear behind the wall. When I finally walked in her room she was in her dresser throwing clothes everywhere.

Melissa: Avery what are you doing?

Avery: Where are my Supergirl PJs?

Melissa: I washed them earlier they are probably still in the laundry room. How about we chose some different ones to wear.

Avery: No.

Melissa: Why don't we wear the bunny ones and then we can wear the other ones tomorrow.

Avery: Fine.

She picked the matching set of bunny PJs off the floor and went into her bathroom and shut the door so she could shower. I started folding the PJs she threw on the floor and put them back in her dresser. When I was finished Avery came out of her bathroom in her new PJs and wet hair.

Melissa: Go brush through your hair and then we can lay down.

I watched her disappear again and I went to sit in her cage chair that hung from the ceiling. She came out from the bathroom with brushed hair and sparkling teeth. I watched her grab her blanket off her bed and then she came over and sat in my lap. I held her close to my heart and talked to her before she fell asleep.

Melissa: I got a text from your school today and you don't have school tomorrow so you me and the babies will spend all day together tomorrow.

Avery: That's cool. I'm tired.

Melissa: Go to sleep. I will sit with you until you do. I love you Avery.

I held her until she fell asleep and even after she did. I don't remember how long I was siting with her, but I remember what I was thinking. When I was pregnant I used to hold her until she fell asleep all the time, but since the babies were born I haven't done this. I used to take this time and think about all the things that I missed from when they were little. I wished I could of seen each of there first birthdays or when they were born, but I was happy that I got to be apart of all there milestones since then. I remember just looking at her face when Chris opened the door slightly.

Chris: I see she is asleep.

Melissa: Yeah I used to hold her like this all the time before the babies were born. It was something I always looked forward to at the end of the night, but since the babies were born I haven't held her at all. I yelled at her today Chris. I yelled because I was so overwhelmed with everything else I didn't even realize I had been pushing her to the side. I was a terrible mother and I have been one ever since we adopted them.

Chris: Don't say that. I will not let you think that because it is not true and everyone knows it. You were the one to comfort them when their whole lives came crashing down. When Anna needed encouragement you were the one to give it to her. There is a reason that all the girls come to you for comfort and that is because you give them comfort without a doubt. You make me a better person and you will make all the girls better people as well.

He reached up and kissed me on the head before grabbing Avery out of my arms and placing her in her bed. He kissed her on the forehead and then came over and grabbed my hand leading me out of Avery's room.