Forget Me Not✓| Yoonmin(+18)

chapter seventeen (part one)

I'm acting so childish but I can't really control myself.

It's the first night in almost two weeks that he hasn't stayed the night at my place. Miyoung is sleeping on the couch, snoring lightly and I can't fall asleep. I'm used to him being under the same roof as me. I would stay up at nights just to go watch him sleep like a fucking creep.

Now I'm sitting at the edge of the bed, not able to fall asleep as always. I feel too hot, sweating a bit even in my shorts, topless. my mind wanders to the A-word...that's what jimin likes to call it.

I take my phone and text him, not caring about the time being two in the morning. I'm making progress and I can't afford to disappoint him...again.

Are you awake?

I bite my lip nervously, lying down and holding my phone up, inches from my face. he answers really quickly.

Yeah...why are you still up?! Go back to sleep

My fingers are hesitant but I'm getting bold now that I don't have to look him in the eyes.

Can't...miss you

My heart is beating fast, like a teenager texting their crush for the first time. when he answers, I almost drop the phone on my nose in my haste to see the text.

Me too...sorry I couldn't make it

A lot happened

I'll tell you over dinner tomorrow :)

Thank god he said it back or I would've hanged myself with the sheets.

I lick my lips, trying to be a little more daring. I know I'm gonna regret this in the morning but I'm too far gone to chicken out now.

Ok

Gonna go to sleep now...maybe I'll dream of you

I feel like I'm having a fever. My mind is hazy and I'm not sure what I'm saying anymore.

I'll come into your dream and bring a lot of pepperoni pizza :-*

He took it pretty well...I mean me flirting like a thirteen-year-old. of course, that's not how I wish to dream of him, eating pizza, but it'll have to do for now. I can't exactly tell him I'm in desperate need of a wet dream of him since I can't have the real thing.

I fall asleep, holding my phone against my chest.

***

"yoongi? Can you hear me baby?"

My eyes flutter open but I'm feeling dizzy, dazed and when the lights hit my eyes, I feel like throwing up. I'm so hot, lying down in my sweat, sheets almost wet. 

I hear miyoung's voice distantly. "I'm gonna give him something for the fever...his body's weak cause of the detox so expect a lot of sickness coming your way."

The bed sinks beside me and a cool hand is put on my forehead. His sweet voice whispers in my ear. "I think we ate too much pizza last night."

I shiver from the feeling of his breath on my ear, looking at him with hazy eyes. His cheeks are pink and he's smiling shyly. God I wish I could move.

Miyoung, AKA the ultimate cockblock, sits on the bed on my other side. "take these pills...hurry up I need to go to work!" she's not grumpy, just being a bitch as always.

Jimin's startled. "it's fine! I'll give it to him."

Please do.

What is wrong with me?!

***

"let me help you!" he whines.

"I can take them off myself just fine!" I yell, frustrated. He giggles. "you're red...are you embarrassed I'll see you?"

I stammer, taken aback by his boldness. "wha...what is wrong with you?!"

He giggles again, his eyes shining with pure evil. "I'll be outside...don't lock the door."

When I close the door behind him and lock the door, I need to sit on the bathroom floor because of my weak body. On second thought I unlock the door in case I pass out during my bath from weakness.

I get into the bath jimin has prepared, trying to relax my aching body. I hear his muffled voice from behind the door. "are you ok?"

I try to shout but it doesn't come out loud. "yeah."

The door is slammed opened and I flinch so hard the water falls from the side. He's smiling too sweet. "I didn't hear you. thought I'd check on you."

I groan, covering my face with my hands, putting my knees to my chest to hide myself. "jimin...what are you on?!"

He laughs and sits on the toilet. "nothing. Just trying to cheer you up. and I was really worried you'll pass out so I'm gonna sit here...by the way I can't see you cause of the foam and bubbles."

I try to relax, a smile on my face from his confession. "what happened yesterday? I came out of there and saw her instead of you."

He smiles apologetically. "I should've told you but everything was so chaotic...well...jungkook came."

I look at him dumbfounded, my heart beating fast. I dip further in the water, feeling my fever lessening because of the pills but I'm not feeling better. What the fuck does he want?

He's looking at the wall in front of him, a frown on his face. "long story short, he said he wants to be in joon's life as his father. I told you before he can get custody if he wants but it doesn't seem to be his intention...so I accepted and tried talking to joon about it but he freaked out. Said kook wants to take him away from me."

I nod, looking down at the bubbles. "isn't that a normal reaction?"

I like naughty jimin :)) I went out of the house today after nearly two months. I try to blame coronavirus but the real reason is I'm paralyzed by depression, afraid of going out, having to confront people who might be rude to me because I'm overweight or because I don't fit in their standards of beauty. I know it won't happen but the fear is too much and I prefer the safety of our house.

but today I said fuck it and went out and it was good. the first step is always the hardest.

now I know some of you can't relate to this or don't want to know about it but I wanted to write for someone who is struggling with the same thing :)