Forget Me Not✓| Yoonmin(+18)

chapter twenty eight (part one)

"what are the fucking chances?!" Jinyoung chuckles at me. "low...like one or two percent...you're a walking bad omen dude."

I glare at him, feeling like hyperventilating.

I'm currently at my former classmate's office who now runs a OB/GYN and fertilityclinic, freaking out. "is he the same as a woman? When can we know for sure?"

He puts away some papers, snickering at my panicked state. "didn't you say he already has a kid? He must know it himself." I scowl at him. "he was a teenager! And he's freaking out even more...I left him like that to get some useful info but your ass is useless."

He gets little serious, motioning to the couch in front of his desk. "you're giving me a headache...sit down." I comply, my heart beating fast and irregularly.

What the fuck's gonna happen now?

He was full-on sobbing when I left him. I still see his disappointed and scared look when I close my eyes. Am I an ass for leaving him? yes...but two people freaking out together isn't exactly the best idea...and I need to know exactly how fucked we are.

"ok...I think you know their chances of conceiving is half compared to normal women even in normal circumstances...do you know where he was on his menstrual cycle?" I look at him dumfounded and he huffs. "shouldn't you know this as a doctor before dating a femiculus? They don't bleed but they have times when they are most fertile. If he's not on that time of the month, the chances of him being pregnant is really low."

I take a deep breath, taking in all this new info. "then...how can I know where he is if he doesn't bleed?" he shrugs. "it's hard to tell but there are physical symptoms that show it approximately. If you want, you can call him to come now and I'll examine him...or you could come three weeks later for a blood test since the typical pregnancy tests don't exactly work for them."

I rub my face with my hands, feeling a little calmer...he could be far from his ovulation time...maybe we got lucky?

"I don't wanna freak him out by taking him here now...we'll meet you in three weeks...thanks for making time for me jinyoung."

He smiles, pushing his round glasses up. "you're welcome...don't worry. Even if he's pregnant, you'll wing it." I roll my eyes. "you give me so much confidence."

***

When I go back after grocery shopping, the night has come. The house is dark everywhere, no sound heard. Did he leave?!

I stumble inside and put the bags down the first place I see, putting the bouquet I got him on the counter after turning the lights on. I go to my room, where I left Jimin crying his eyes out, still covered in his own cum and my big Tshirt.

When I see a slumped figure under the covers, I sigh out of relief and turn the light on, wanting to wake him for dinner. I don't think he left the bed or ate anything for hours.

I sit beside him, rubbing his back on the covers, slowly putting them away.

He's still only in my shirt, curled into himself ike a fetus, deep asleep. There's a frown on his pouty face, dry tears still visible.

"baby...wake up...I wanna make you mac and cheese...it'll be ready after you've showered."

He stirs awake, slowly opening his eyes and looking up at me. he looks so lost and small my heart breaks. I'm sure the fear he's feeling is nothing compared to me. pregnancy has been an experience of trauma for him and now...he may go through it again because of me.

I caress his messy newly dyed gray hair, leaning down to kiss him but he pulls his head back, looking down at the bed. "you left." his voice is deep and scratchy, accusing and hurt.

I gulp. "I...I'm sorry min. I needed to see my friend...he runs a clinic and has a specialty in...people like you. he told me we could go to him in three weeks for you to be tested."

He leans into my hand on his cheek, still pouting and looking down, not attempting to sit up. "does...does he think I might be..." his voice breaks. "he doesn't know baby...I'm sorry but we have to wait...and I know it probably isn't gonna make you feel better but I'd love to have a baby with you even if it wasn't planned."

He finally sits up, shaking a bit cause of being almost naked. "i...I can't go through that again." My heart drops in my chest when his determined eyes stare at mine directly and sharply. "do you mean..." he cuts me off, crying again. "y...yes! I wanna get an abortion if it turns out that I am...fuck!"

He turns his back to me. he looks so broken and i...don't know how I feel about what he told me. "let's just...wait and see what happens...do you need help taking a shower?"

I don't want to think about what he said if he's not even pregnant. I'll get upset for no reason so we'll cross that bridge when we come to it.

He nods but doesn't turn back to me. I take my jacket and jeans off, scooping him up in my arms. He yelps in surprise but relaxes against me, letting me go to the bathroom and sit him on the counter.

He waits with a grim face as I fill the bathtub, making grabby hands at me when it's filled. I chuckle at him being high maintenance but take my shirt off him and put him in the water anyway.

He blushes a little as he winces in the warm water. "kook texted me to say he's coming back earlier cause of his work." I wet his hair, putting shampoo on it and massaging his scalp. "he is? It's barely been a couple days. Weren't they planning to stay for at least a week?"

He moves his hands in the water, playing around in thought. "yeah...I'm a little worried...I'm sure joon's ok but kook seems off." I feel a little jealous when I hear the concern for his ex in his voice but put it aside. He needs the distraction. "why do you think that?"

I rinse his hair, putting conditioner on it. "he usually video calls but he just texted...without an emoji!" I chuckle at this, amused now. "is he that much of a baby that him being emoji-less worries you?!"

He laughs softly. "he's a ball of fluff...and tae's been hard on him." my ears are perked up at the possible gossip. "are they still fighting? That's peak childish behavior."

He shakes his head as I rinse his hair with the shower head. "it's not about joon anymore...don't act like you know it but kook kinda has a crush on tae."

I stop, dumfounded. "really? They've known each other for what...five months?" he rolls his eyes. "yeah but they spend a lot of time together. They practically live together now."

I nod, rubbing the washcloth on his hands. "so taeshit doesn't like him back?" he glares at me, his wet bangs covering his forehead, making him look younger. "that's so mature of you...I think tae likes him a bit too...but he has his reasons."

Hi :) take care of yourself :)