Forget Me Not✓| Yoonmin(+18)

chapter thirty one (part three)

I park in the first spot I see, sprinting out of the car and picking him up again as he grunts in pain, shivering in pain.

Mom comes after us as they put him on a stretcher, letting me stay in the room with him as they wait for jinyoung, a doctor checking his condition in the meantime. They help him take his coat off as he cries and sobs breathlessly with every move, the white sheet beneath him stained with drops of blood...

I feel numb, my heart beating slow and frantically fast at the same time. I don't feel his hand squeezing mine...is it the pain of his strong hold or is it...somewhere in my chest? Stupid condom...I don't wanna see him in this state. fuck having a baby. I just want him...and he's bleeding like a fountain.

They change him into a hospital gown and jinyoung finally arrives, quickly checking his vitals and shooing everyone beside me and an assistant out of the room. He coaxes jimin into opening his legs, watching closely. Any other time I would be a little mad unreasonably but right now, I'm focused on wiping his tears and kissing him every two seconds.

I don't think I'll survive this even if he does...

I don't even know I'm crying before his shaking hand comes up on my cheek as he smiles shakily at me, not able to talk, biting his lips in pain.

Jinyoung applies the gel to his bump, moving the device on his stomach to see the baby on the monitor. He seems calm, only telling jimin to try to relax his muscles and earning glares in response.

He finally takes his gloves off, smiling at us. "you haven't gone into labor, thankfully, but you need to be put into bed rest for the rest of pregnancy. Your body is strong but you need to be careful. Your womb is not as strong as a woman and emotional pressure or physical exertion can easily end the pregnancy."

Jimin gasps, crying more at his words but he seems to be in less pain now, still shaking. "I...I can't walk at all?" his voice is rough from the screaming earlier when they put him too roughly on the bed. Jinyoung smiles, wiping jimin's stomach from the gel and putting his gown down in place. "you can walk in the house but don't overdo it. You can go out once every four days to walk slowly around the house but not more than an hour and rest in between. What happened today?"

Jimin hugs my hand and I calm down a bit when I see his body stop shaking. Finally. i think he was more scared for the baby.

"I...I was shocked a bit." I squint my eyes at him. "you almost had a panic attack." He glares back at me. "nobody asked you." jinyoung snorts, getting up. "try to avoid getting shocked till you give birth...take care. I'll see you in three weeks for your appointment."

***

"I didn't know he was so old." Jimin shrugs, sat comfortably between my legs on the bed as joon sits between his, snuggling against his stomach, watching home for the hundredth time. Jimin's genuinely interested.

He scoffs. "he's kwang's second youngest kid...he must be 45 or something now...I'm more interested in how he managed to get that fu...that person out of prison."

I kiss the top of his head, caressing joon's head at the same time. I put a slice of apple in their mouths both before saying what hobi told me. "he's chronically ill...like dying in a few months ill. Hobi said he has stage four lung cancer and that's why they let him out to get treated and...die."

He lets out a soulless laughter. "I'm not really happy to hear that...but not sad either. I just hope he'll hurt no one else before he dies." I put his hair behind his ears, kissing his temple as he gets his head comfortable on my shoulder. "he won't...he can barely walk and he's out of it most of the time cause of the drugs."

He shrugs. "good...I don't wanna talk about him anymore." I nod, rubbing his stomach before joon slaps my hand away, grumbling about how it's his turn with his sister. It'll be a disaster if they are a boy...

A few moments pass with me wondering what's so cool about this purple alien before jimin whispers. "I never thought I'd see him again...it was so...scary...like I was a pregnant teenager again. Well the first part is true but still...it was...around this time of my pregnancy when...when...can you take joon to his own room?"

He's breathing a little more heavily than normal considering his pregnancy so I take a kicking joon to his room with my laptop, kissing him while he's still pouting about not snuggling with his sis. It's past his bedtime anyway but since it's the weekend we allowed him to stay up one more hour.

When I go back...

Jimin tells me everything about what happened those three months, crying or talking monotonously, choking at some details and almost collapsing when he talks about the day which convinced him to end it all...

To say I'm stunned, deeply sad and angry is an understatement. He's so strong...I'd never survive something like that...judging from my own experience which I almost didn't. good thing he's dying on his own or I would do him the favor.

***

Life goes back to normal with mom, dad, uncle Youngjae and aunt jihyun visiting more than before, bringing a lot of gifts for the kid's nursery. I'm so happy I got a three-bedroom apartment.

Jimin seems so excited and happy about their presents and support, cheeks pink every time they coo at him. I think he thought they'd be disgusted and not approving when he asked me to keep it a secret from literally everyone.

I realize he didn't have any of it last time and it makes me happy that he's being pampered and spoiled this time. Mom practically lives here sometimes, making so much of jimin's favorite food that he overeats, complaining about not being able to breathe afterwards with a pout while mom plays around with joon, helping him with his homework. I think she's pretty fond of joon.

Even aunt hyujin seems happy. She helps jimin slowly decorate the nursery with joon putting stickers of his favorite movie characters on the crib, proud to be helping.

Dad changed the wallpapers with the help of uncle Youngjae one day, changing the flooring to make it softer for a baby. It makes me realize that it's the first grandchild in the family...

Jimin goes out almost twice a week but not without me. he's been a little paranoid at times, scared that Daehyun's here to get revenge. Uncle Youngjae talked with him about this, apologizing for not giving him the heads up. jimin kept silent with accusing eyes until he let it go, sighing.

I get their side too. after hearing some things about his young years ruined by kwang, I have no doubt that anyone would be fucked up after that.

I know jimin gets it too but the fear is too much for him.

so it was a false alarm :)) did you know that babies can't see much before they are 6 months or so? they only see blurry images and cannot tell things and people apart most of the times if not for the scent and voice :)