Forget Me Not✓| Yoonmin(+18)

chapter twenty two (part two)

As I go back to sleep beside a drowsy joon who's playing with his doll, my heart beats a little fast.

I know I'm stupid and we are over each other but I can't help it. he's so perfect it intimidates me.

Jimin comes in, turning the lights off, slipping under the blankets. He peppers joon's face with kisses and he giggles sleepily. "you should be asleep now mister. Now put cass down she needs sleep too."

Joon happily nods, putting Cassidy beside him in my arms and tugging on our collars to get closer to him. jimin smiles at him, kissing his head. "night night baby."

Joon yawns and snuggles into my side. "night night daddy...nightie papa."

My heart is gonna burst with how cute he is, holding my shirt with his tiny fists.

Jimin whispers. "should I be jealous that he has his ass to my face instead of you?"

I try to keep it down while laughing. "I think I'm just new to him."

I see his smile in the darkness. "he told me you're as fun as tae. he likes that you can lift him easily too. I can no longer carry him around like that."

My heart swells with happiness. "really? So he likes me better than him?"

Jimin scoffs at my childish question. "you two need to stop this. he loves you both and that's all that matters."

I nod, caressing his little head slowly. "yes it is...thanks for giving me the chance to be with him...my life has turned upside down and I...I couldn't be happier than this."

He sighs. "honestly, I didn't think you would do very good as a dad...I mean you're still kinda a baby yourself."

My eyes widen and I feel offended. Very. "excuse me?! I'm a grown-ass adult!"

He chuckles. "sorry...just an assumption and I know I was wrong now. Chill."

It gets quiet for a few seconds before he whispers. "I'm happy he has you now. It's the only regret I ever had...him not having you in his life."

I gulp, feeling like shit. "I'm so sorr..." he cuts me off. "I didn't say that for you to apologize...believe it not, I never blamed you for making that decision. I might've done the same thing..."

I shake my head, feeling emotional after hearing that. "but I do...I think about it every night. The way I snapped out you...the things I said...God, I was so stupid."

He puts his hand on mine on top of joon's side. "don't. I'm way over it. you were a kid like me. shocked and scared. It was normal...and I'm happy you did that. Now joon has a successful dad who had the chance to become who he always wanted to be. He's gonna learn so many things from you."

I feel a lump in my throat at his kind words. How can he forgive so eaisily?

"th...thanks..."

He smiles. "now go to sleep. I'm done talking to you." sass queen.

***

There are only two weeks of my rehab left and we're now near spring. I feel so better, physically and mentally. I've gained back the weight I lost so quickly and I started working out a bit...after hearing jimin talk about taeshit's abs with heart eyes.

Jimin has been in contact with my parents and the rest of the family, slowly getting to be less awkward around them. He even took joon there with him a few times and all went well.

Since joon's been spending more time with bunnybitch, jimin has had more free time to spend with me. we mostly stay at my house, watching movies or bickering...yes bickering. We seem like a fucking married couple...and I couldn't be happier.

Right now he's stubbornly sitting on my lap with his back to me, holding the TV remote to watch what he wants.

I look at his tiny waist, shoving my fingers in them. He screams. "OW! What the fuck?!"

I chuckle at his upset face. "it worked. Get off me."

He turns around, straddling my hips and I gulp. Is he gonna play dirty?

He puts the tv remote behind him on the coffee table, not taking his eyes off me, then leans back in, pushing his nose to mine. "what are we yoongs?"

I groan. "not yoongs...I'm not gonna talk."

That's an excuse. I don't want to give a definite answer cause that would mean everything comes along with it.

I like what we have now. I don't want to ruin it.

He scowls. "are you playing me? you even gave me that locket but you won't say we're boyfriends out loud?"

I huff, looking away. "don't be ridiculous."

He abruptly stands up, hands clenched into fists and he's fuming. "am I just an easy companion?"

I don't know how we came to this.

"no...NO! why would you say that? You are...you are my boyfriend...there! Happy now?!"

I'm upset for no reason. I guess it's because he's been subtly trying to get sexual with me over the past week and admitting this would mean I can't shove him away.

He gives me a little smile and comes back to straddle me in his tight black jeans and white blouse. "yes I am happy. Now kiss me." my blood runs cold and hot at the same time. I didn't expect him to be the bold type and shamelessly demand what he wants...and it turns me on a bit.

I lean in and put my lips on his, trying not to overthink. We're just kissing. Nothing more.

He sighs softly into the kiss, snuggling closer and wrapping his arms around my neck. I'm intoxicated by smelling his strong lavender scent and I instinctively put my arms around his waist, pulling him in.

It's lazy and slow, no rush or force and I feel good...although I don't really know how a kiss should feel like. Jimin's my only experience and he feels soft and safe, licking my lips like a kitten. "open up."

I shiver at his raspy voice against my lips and comply, letting him play with my tongue with his. I honestly don't know what I'm doing so I stay still and pliant for him to go on.

He pulls back a bit, licking his lips. His eyes are shining and he's a little breathless. "you know...I remembered that night back at that house when I was drunk and we kissed...I remember what you said."

Fuck my luck.

My hands go loose on his hips and he gets closer, seeming desperate. "it's no big deal. I'm practically a virgin too if we don't count kook."

I shake my head. "I don't know...isn't it too fast?"

Jimin wants some action with yoongi. don't we all mochi.

I wanted to update last night but the internet connection sucked. 

I don't know how people can be so cruel in judging and insulting others, especially the way they look. that's inhumane and shows how shallow someone is.