Red Desire | Kylo Ren x Reader

You Heard Him Girl

There was a solid pounding ringing inside your head. A tightness began to completely consume you starting in your chest. No amount of air was enough to quench your dry lungs. The world seemed to be spinning and everything was crashing down all at once.

Breathe in, breathe out.

Chaos consumed your entire being as you stumbled trying to move through the room. You needed to move. Needed to get out of there. Your head was telling you the logical thing to do- go and get your patients. Your heart told you to save yourself and run into someone's strong safe arms and get the hell out of this place. But there was nothing or no one who could protect you now. All of the false feelings of security and safety that had kept you sane over the last two years was completely gone and replaced with fear. Dread. There was so much unknown.

Breathe in, breathe out.

There was a sharp and clear memory of you letting out a howling scream realizing what was happening. Prisoner escaping. Attack on the base. You didn't quite know how the two things were related, but you just had a feeling that they were. A haze fell over your mind as you somehow made it back to your medbay moving through hallways and doorways mindlessly. Blurs of gray were in front of you as they moved in and out of focus. Squinting your eyes, you tried to make out the commotion in front of you and it was pure insanity. Shouting- there was so much shouting. Who was shouting? You really didn't know. Numbly your body moved trying to push waiting patients out of the lobby and into the hallway. You grabbed hands, shoulders, arms, anything; trying to get people out. You had to get people out.

Breathe in, breathe out.

Words left your lips without you understanding what they meant as you assured patients that they would be alright. Would they be? You hoped so. There was a rumble that shook the floor causing screams. Mind racing you tried to comprehend what was happening but couldn't find an answer. All your body could think of doing was running to a corner and crouching down to hide. Hide away from this nightmare. Instead, it went on autopilot getting people out and moving. A familiar scent was near and you aimlessly reached out to grab it. It was strong and warm and held your hand back tightly. They pulled your entire body as your feet followed behind.

Breathe in, breathe out.

A gust of cold air hit your face as you walked through the double doors into the back of the medbay. The gray comforting blob in front of you was urging you along and you continued to follow willingly. It pulled you into a room and forced your head upwards. Your eyelids felt heavy and you were fighting to keep them open. Fighting to stay alert. You needed to stay alert. Your body shook as someone's hands were on your arms trying to bring you back to reality. As if a mist cleared from your vision, your eyes began to make out the shaggy dark hair and worried eyes looking at you.

"We need to get all patients out now," they were saying to you.

Nodding your head, you tried to focus your eyes. What was happening? Why was your mind playing tricks on you right now? You needed to be present. Needed to help people. Needed to help yourself. A match within you caught fire and you shook yourself awake.

Damon was helplessly trying to get you out of your trance with a tone of urgency. Your eyes fluttered and you snapped back into reality feeling a newfound sense of clarity. He was holding you, shaking you, trying to get you mobile.

"I'm here," you said breathlessly looking up at him trying to sound assuring.

A large sigh of relief left his chest as he pulled you into an embrace. He was muttering something about moving hospital beds to transporters and trying to get a much emergency medical equipment for the critical patients. Releasing you and crouching down, his glossy eyes stared into yours.