Red Desire | Kylo Ren x Reader

Don't Make Promises

"Kylo."

A few tears of happiness fell down your cheeks in fat droplets. Your voice felt like it was trapped in your throat as you gazed at the perfection that was his face as he looked back at you. The scar that stretched across his face almost blended in with the surrounding skin in the blue light of the projected hologram making him look extra god-like. Holding the device out in front of you shakily, you realized how nervous you felt.

It felt like you hadn't talked to him in weeks.

You felt like you had butterflies in your stomach.

Kylo licked his lips before asking with a face of slight worry, "Where have you been?" He paused slowly blinking, "I've been trying to call you every night-"

You gulped in air feeling more tears slide down your face, "I-I didn't know, I'm sorry. I didn't know that you-"

He shushed you softly, "It's okay, I'm not upset."

You smiled and gently wiped your damp cheeks, "I couldn't bring myself to come in here."

"Why?"

"Well," you paused not quite sure how to put it into words. "I-I, um, couldn't stand the idea of being in here w-without you."

His eyes widened slightly, and he let out a soft sigh, "What made you go in there tonight then?"

You shrugged your shoulders, "I guess, well, I just really missed you."

He waited a bit before saying lowly with a small smile, "I miss you, too."

A wide grin fell on your face and you brushed a loose strand of hair away from your face instantly feeling a burning in your chest. It was like a warmth flooded through your entire body by just talking to him.

It quickly faded as you thought of how he must be doing and coping with things while he was away. His mission was probably very difficult and here he was talking to you. It looked like he hadn't been sleeping properly. He probably wasn't eating that well either. The anxiety took over making you miss him even more.

"What did I say about worrying too much, Red?" he asked with a tone of warning in his voice.

You scrunched up your face in thought, "How did you know I was worrying?"

"Because I know you."

You paused feeling your heart flutter, "Well, I hardly know you."

"We'll have to change that when I get back," he said with a smirk.

Smiling back, you replied, "Okay." You then frowned again with a small pout across your face, "But I can't help feeling anxious about you being gone. I can't just shut off my feelings. I'm worried about you."

His face softened, "I'm okay, Red. Stop worrying."

A scoff came out of your mouth, "Um, that's like asking you to control your temper."

He rolled his eyes, "Ha ha, very funny."

"Well, I'm being serious. I can't help that I'm anxious about you being gone-"

"It's my job."

You sighed looking away from him, "I know, Kylo."

There was a silence that sat in the room while the two of you kept quiet. He sat there waiting for you to say something else, but you didn't as you continued looking away from him. "How has your training been going?" he asked softly getting your attention back.

Your head perked back up looking at him, "It's uh, it's good, but it's a lot of work. My body is sore every single damn day."

"Good thing you have a nice tub to relax in," he said with a smirk. "Is your trainer any good?"