Red Desire | Kylo Ren x Reader

What a Brat

Kylo's words, "You're mine," rang through your ears making your heart flutter, but you tried to ignore the feeling.

"I'm not yours. I'm not anyone's," you hissed at him trying not to tremble underneath his touch. "I am my own goddamn person."

"Mine, no one else's," he growled at you as the synthesizer buzzed near your ear. "Look at you. Already trembling under my touch. Only I can do that to you."

Releasing your wrists from his strong grip, you pushed against his firm chest forcefully trying to escape his hold on you. You ducked under his outstretched arms and backed away further into the room. He whipped around to look at you while you folded your arms over your chest.

"I can't do this anymore," you said looking down at your feet trying to keep the emotion out of your voice. "I can't do this anymore w-with you."

Kylo said nothing to your remark and you heard his slow deep breathing coming from the mask. You wished he would take that damn thing off so you could have an actual conversation with him. Turning away to not face him, you stared at the opposite dark wall trying to steady your breathing. Hugging yourself tighter to stop yourself from shaking, you took a deep breath in an attempt to calm yourself down.

It wasn't working.

You still felt anxious as fuck.

There was a familiar hissing sound from behind you of his mask being removed from his head. He dropped it to the floor, and you flinched at the loud sound it made as landed with a bang against the metal flooring. Too afraid to look at him, you continued trying to breathe and stared at the blank wall.

You knew if you saw his face right now, you would give in. You would give in to him and everything that he was.

He had that power over you.

"I-I didn't think anything was ever going to happen, b-between us," you said slowly trying to keep your voice steady. "And, and then things just moved so quickly," you mumbled fighting to find the right words to say. "I clearly let my emotions into this mess and I shouldn't have."

Kylo's feet shifted slightly while he listened to you speak. Not facing him made you feel a little better. A bit more confident with your words. You took a deep breath and continued talking.

"At first I was fine with just being casual, or whatever was happening between us," you said while wringing your hands together in front of you. "Then, I," you gulped not sure what to say for an explanation. "Well, never mind that. But, you, you kept pushing me away," you said shuffling your feet. "I was vulnerable around you and you didn't return any of that."

Tears started prickling in your eyes and you quickly wiped them away. You turned around and saw Kylo staring intently at you. He's dark eyes were clouded in confusion as he stood tall with his hands folded behind his back.

"I-I showed you everything. Every part of me. A-And I got nothing from you," you sighed running your hands through your hair before looking back up at him. "You can read my fucking mind, so I know you probably know even more about me than what you let on."

Your heart was beating fast and your legs felt antsy. You began pacing the short length of the room attempting to clear your thoughts.

What did you want from him?

A relationship?

No.

Well...

No.

You just wanted someone who understood you. Someone who cared about you. Someone who was vulnerable and open with you. Someone who-

"I do understand you," Kylo said softly making you whip your head up to look at him and you stopped pacing.